@amekittykatzx.

paboo ame pabooo.（ToT）

2012-01-10T20:23:00.001+08:00

Hi, the most amazing boy in the world. Hmm, I don't know where to start. I know it's my &%^& post to you alrd, but i hope you won't get sick of it. We've been together for awhile now. And yet, I constantly ignore you, but still you stayed.

You stayed. You never left my side, not even once. You stayed because you love me, despite every wrong thing I did, despite my faults and flaws.

But I want you to know that I'm sorry. I truly am, I've always been, sorry.

I'm sorry for being so neglectful, rude, selfish, basically unworthy of you. I'm sorry for constantly disappointing you. Sorry, sorry, sorry for everything. I'm willing to say a thousand "I'm Sorry" to you, but I know it can't undo what has been done, and it won't ease the pain in your heart. For what I've put you through, all the suffering & torment, I'm sorry, I deserve all the anger & resentment from you.

It hurts me yknw, to see you like this, all thanks to ME. SELFISH ME. Each time I think of you, I get angry with myself because I can imagine the pain you went through, the bitter tears you would've shed, all thanks TO AME, SELFISH AME.

I don't deserve an amazing person like you, I'm nothing compare to you, honestly. You probably won't even believe what I'm saying right now, but that's okay. Truth is, I'm never good enough. And, I'm sorry.

I'm sorry that when I get into these moods, all I can do is apologise. I’m sorry that it’s so annoying and I’m sorry that anyone has to deal with it. I’m sorry for being so ugly. I’m sorry I get so affected by what you do, I’m sorry that I’m so sensitive. I’m sorry I suck at conversing, and I’m sorry you feel obligated to me in any way. I’m sorry I’m suicidal so often, and I’m sorry I don’t talk to anyone else. I’m sorry I don't tell you everything. I’m sorry that I’m not good enough, and I’m sorry that I don’t deserve your time. I’m sorry I take up your time. I’m sorry I take up space. I’m sorry that I ever existed I’m sorry you don’t trust me any more. I’m sorry I didn’t stay the same, I’m so sorry I changed. I’m sorry I’m messed up, and I’m sorry I make you deal with that. I’m sorry I tell you things when I know you’ll ignore them. I’m sorry for thinking I have any right to be in your life, I’m sorry that I am. I’m sorry I don’t have the courage to end it. I’m sorry that I’m so uninteresting. I’m sorry I’m so ungrateful to the world, I’m sorry I’m not so cool. I’m sorry I talk about pointless stuff. I’m sorry I’m so selfish. I’m sorry I don’t think about other people enough. I’m sorry that I can’t take a compliment. I’m sorry that everything I do is stupid. I’m sorry I’m so stupid. I’m sorry I’m so destructive. I’m sorry I can’t be a better person. I’m sorry that there’s so much to apologise for. I’m sorry I’m so indecisive. I just really want to apologise for being me. I’m so sorry.

*kneels down. Forgive me?

iloveyou, my prince charming.

my everything. ♡

2011-12-20T20:49:00.001+08:00

HI CUTE BOY!! ^_______^; *waves madly. Not you okay, the boy in the picture. *points upstairs. Today, it's 01/01/2012, which marks our 6 monthsary. :)

Many things have happened and many things have changed, but one thing stays the same, and that's it's still you and me. I know sometimes misunderstandings and miscommunications come between us, but we both know in our hearts that little things will never separate us apart. In fact, NOTHING will. :) For all the troubles I've put in your heart, forgive me. I'm really sorry, from the bottom of my heart. We've been through alot together, through good times and bad, we've stayed by each other's sides, holding on tightly to each other, because in each other, we found our happiness and our unforgettable love story.

I still don't know what I did to be so lucky to have you in my life, and......my dream come true. I'm really thankful. :') Through these 6 months that we've been together, I've been truly blessed. Someone to hold my hand, wipe my tears, make me smile when there's no reason to, and make beautiful memories together, that I'll never forget.

As we continue to show everyone that our love runs deep & true, that the bond that holds us is too strong to break, and throughout everything, we'll always be by each other's sides.

And so, to the most amazing boy in the world,

Happy 6 Monthsary my dear boy, iloveyou. :)

" No matter what happens,

Even when the sky is falling down,

I promise you,

That I'll never let you go. "

i'm a mistake.

2011-12-15T12:36:00.000+08:00

I'm so sorry for everything. I'm sorry for letting you down, all the time. I'm sorry for disappointing you. I'm sorry for being a burden, for ruining everything i touch. I'm sorry for not being there when you needed me. Sorry for yelling at you when you didn't deserve it. Sorry for everything I said, Sorry for those times i exploded. Sorry I'm the reason for all your worries. I'm so sorry. I'm sorry I'm the cause for all the hurt inside of you. I'm sorry, for being so stubborn. I'm sorry, for making you go through all this. You don't deserve this, at all. I'm a horrible person, and I'm sorry.

I'm sorry, really sorry.

But most of all, I'm sorry for always disappearing and making you worry. Mianhe, cheongmal mianhe. ):

To the most amazing boy in the world,

I love you.

And I can't live without you.

" No matter what happens,

Even when the sky is falling down,

I promise you,

That I'll never let you go. "

∞

2011-11-30T22:15:00.008+08:00

To the most amazing boy in the world,

Five months ago, we met each other. Five months ago you brought me into your life, and I haven't looked back since. You gave me everything when i had little, you brought me up when i fell, you glued me together when i was in pieces. Your love and care gets me through everyday. :) And no matter what, you never gave up on me.

Some people might say that 5months, is too early to know whether or not two people are going to be together forever. BUT, i know in my heart, that I don't want anyone else, not now, not ever. 5months, 156days, 37440000hours, 22464000000minutes, 134784000000seconds, and i wouldn't trade them for anything else in the world. People say that it's hard to get a relationship going, and while it hasn't been the smoothest ride, with scars&bruises, we're still going strong, like you said, just by believing in each other. :')

Though it's been 5months, but...you're more than just my boyfriend. You're my bestfriend, my doctor, my clown, my piggeh, my P'Shone, you're the first person i talk to in the morning, and the last person i talk to at night. You're my everything. :)

Words can't describe how much we've been through together, nor how much you've done for me. But, I'm just so thankful, to have you, my namjachinggu. Without you, I wouldn't be who I am today, cause you're the glue that hold me together. (: Though at times the things you do tries my patience, but I never got mad with you, not even once. Your laughter, your cute smile, your puppydog eyes, how you'll always say iloveyou, the way your hands fit into mine, the way you always irritatingly imitate me, how you always rmb even the smallest details about me, and the touch of your lips against mine. *shy. If i go on, people will get jealous. :p

The reason I wake up everyday, is you, and when I see you, the butterflies, they never go away, just like the first time. Words aren't enough to show how much you mean to me, but I hope through my actions you know how much Iloveyou. Though at times, we're on this road of twists and turns, look how far we've made it through. :) I know that in this world of risks and uncertainties, there's one thing i hold true, and that's my feelings towards you. The past few months have been a struggle, and a blessing.

I can't describe to you how amazing this boy is. He completes me. :) Happy 5th monthsary, iloveyoumysunshineboy. (*^^*)" forever&always. ∞ hehe. *iloveyoupinkypromise.

" No matter what happens,

Even when the sky is falling down,

I promise you,

That I'll never let you go. "

i'll be back.

2011-11-12T13:48:00.001+08:00

I know it's been FOREVERRRRRRRRR since I posted but, wait for a pretty lengthy one soon okay, ;) will be away from this space for some time~ busy schedule. ><; A NEW POST SOON K, will be back soon! See you around, ^^;

my dear strong 2PM, ♥

2011-09-21T21:01:00.000+08:00

I started from zero, unlike the others. I don’t have any talents, so I was told off many times from people for not being able to neither dance nor sing. But I don’t care; just like a weed, I stood up and tried, that’s why I’m here. Even now, I’m still trying.

- Chansung

:')

Rilakkuma baby, :b

2011-09-16T23:51:00.002+08:00

cute right? ^^ always makes my day, my dear Rilakkuma. :B

busy bee.

2011-08-31T21:27:00.003+08:00

HAHA! Sec One face! XD

And yesssss, I know I've not been updating...but I can seem to find the time to do so. Sadly, yeah. Buuut, life's been yknw.. LIFE. Usuals, been really busy with school and Raye and what nots. Hopefully I'll finally find the time to set aside one day to yknw...just sit and blog? I guess.

But, the September Holidays are approaching and my schedule is packed like $&*&^%$% like everyday ehh! Still got work. X___X Wah siaooo, there's so much in my mind, I can't seem to write it downnnnn ahhhhhh WHY!!! GAHHHHHH, so irritating. Nehmind, when the lengthy post comes, you read till you happy k? XP

I'm really exhausted though, from all the stuffs and schedule. I'm sorry if i'm really off-mood or smth. I didn't mean to. :( But yeah, my studies are going down the drain again. I better buck up!! AME WHAT IS THIS YOU DUMBSTUPIDCLUMSY IDIOT!! STUDY!! Haih, keep falling asleep in every class and test! ><" BOYA AME BOYA! Someone should slap me or smth.

Trainings have been killing mee. I'm like die-ing and i don't even know why. Skills going down like $%^&*&^ Stamina going down like %^&*&^ Passes all cannot throw hard liao?! Passes all cannot catch properly liao?! AME YOU LOUSY! USELESS! Work harddddd, I want to be in the school team please! =( Let's goooooooo.

So with my busy schedule, i'm gonaa be squeezing in my studies and netball. Tution?! Haih.. Extra self-training again?! Haih.. AME UHH! MUST! Plus still learning guitar..... And I really want go back to dance classes, but haih... Ottokae? :( What else what else. Plus at home it's so....... OKAY ENOUGH!

So yeah, see you all in the next post. xx :)

PUT YOUR HANDS UP! ^^

2011-08-14T14:54:00.006+08:00

Annyeong! :D

I'm baaaaack! XD Did chu guys miss me? Doubt so, huahuahua. Someone said I'm Dumbo!! Yknw, the Flying Elephant? XD Meanie! I'm a kitty!

Anyways, it's been awhile, but I hope you still come by to read! ^^ I pretty much still owe updates, but i malas riaoooo so yeah. HAHAHAHA, hopefully i'll get the pics then can update le lor!

School's been boring, as usual. What's new. But I'm studying hard, ^^ Fighting! Everyone, study hard! So anyways, it's the fasting month already~ and then soon it will be HARI RAYA! *^^* Tak sabar, tak sabar. :D Then can wear baju raye, makan kuihhh, celebrateeeeee heehee. BESTBEST. =D

So right now, I'm on a saving spreeeeee. 2PM's COMING TO SG!! AND IT'S A SOLO CONCERT!! OMGGGGGGGGGGGGG! Must buy merchandiseeeeeeeee an save for tixxxxx homgggggg. Heh, but I doubt I;ll be paying for the tix. XD kekeke. MADDDDD EXCITEDDDDDDDD. I GET TO SEE THEM AGAIN!! *^^* So saveeeeeee. I want go shopping also. =(

GAHHHHHH. My mind is blank right now. I can't think of anything to blog about? Hahahahahahah sorry. I can't seem to put what I want to blog to words~ HUL!!Nehmind, follow me on twitterrrrrr, I'm active thereeeee.

TWITTER.COM/AMEKITTYKATZX

depression?

2011-08-11T17:16:00.001+08:00

People who think Depression is a choice, take a second to think. How would it feel to wake up and not have the emotional strength to face people. To think that time is just passing by with no real reason. To feel so alone even when you are sitting in a room full of people. To have to put on a face and hide your feelings because no one would care anyway. To lose friends because you can’t find the strength to go out and you can’t physically be ‘happy’. To cry yourself to sleep, hoping you wouldn’t wake up then when you do you are exhausted from the night before, and it all starts again. You try to hide your feelings hoping no one would notice and if you slip up all you get called is attention seeking and ‘emo’. Now tell me why someone would choose that? Depression is an illness, not a choice.

have you?

2011-08-05T20:45:00.003+08:00

Have you ever felt despair? Absolute hopelessness? Have you ever stood in the darkness and known, deep in your heart, in your spirit, that it was never, ever going to get better? That something had been lost, forever, and that it wasn’t coming back?

Jim Butcher

Pokemonnnnnnnnnn! :B

2011-08-02T21:17:00.003+08:00

Hello. I'm real tired from studying for Chem test tml. Like want die already. Ya like that. Nothing seems to be getting into my head. So dumb. So stupid. So worthless. Gonna head to bed soon then. More updates soon. Too many missed. Enjoy the pokemon! ^^

my missed post. highlightssssssss.

2011-07-05T13:03:00.018+08:00

Annyeonghaseyo! :B It's been sooooooooo long! Hehehe, sorry I keep abandoning you bloggeh. :/ hehe. So like...... where do I even begin... cause it's been like...forever... HAHAHAHA. Okay... SOME HIGHLIGHTS? Yeah sure~ :D

OUTWARD BOUND CAMP = (Y)(L)(Y)(L)

Well, when I knew I was chosen to go for this camp, at first I was all like T__________T 5 days away?! But it turned out to be one of the best camps I've ever been to. :') NO KIDDING. I was put in the same group as Taufiqqqq, my appa now. (L) Okayokay, now to the camp.

Woke up so early in the morning, to lug such a heavy bag to school. Haihhhhhh. Sweated so much!! Take bus blablabla reached Punggol, splitted into our groups. So, my watch's called Hillary. At first I was all like........ MEH, WHAT IS THIS..... Then after awhile, as time goes by, I WAS LIKE I DOWANNAAAA LEAVE OBS PLEASHHHH. ;_____; Anyways, the first day was

pretty okay? Yeahhh, I've had so much fun with 'em on the first day! I never expected myself to have so much courage to do all that with my watch. HILLARY, gives me courage. :') They inspire me. We played games in the beginning, had a trust fall, and of course, belaying school! :D MAD FUN~ But that was just our trainingggg. So then I FINALLY LEARNED HOW TO PITCH A TENT! (Y)(Y) Mad happy, ^^ Cooked outdoors, sedap leyyy! Just by the first day, we already got so close to each other. Love you Hillary~ ^^v Oh yaaa! The tent damn shiok to sleep in okay. :D Kekeke. My appa took such great care of me! Kumawo appa, :B

The second day camee. Woke up early in the morning. Un-pitch tent blablabla. Then we did rock climbing! Wahhhh, I can't believe I did it. ^^ funnnnn! The way we cheered each other on, (Y)(Y) Oh yaa. We had exercises in the morning to wake all of us up! Tiringgggg. Every morning, Physical Training lehhh~ After that, we went to pack for OUR EXPEDITION! OMG I TELL YOU I COULDN'T EVEN CARRY THAT BAG WELL!!!! IT'S LIKE #$%^&*&^% HEAVY. DAMMMITTTTTTT. Now I know how hikers feel. =( I was sweating so muchhhh. I wanted to cryyyyy. SWEATED LIKE BUCKETZXZXZX. HAHAHAHAHA. NO BUT SRZLY!!! SO we hiked abit, then did Alpine Rescue~ under the HOTHOTSUNNY sun. :( So tiring, yet bonded us so much too. :') Then we hiked to Campsite 1, wanted to do high elements, but it rained!!! DAMMIT!!!! I was so mega upset. =( Thankfully there was rock climbingg! Conquered it! (Y)(Y) It bonded us alot MOREEEEE! Pitched our tents afterwards, had our dinner~ Then wash uppp! Played Solemn Occasion~ damn funneh lehhh. Everyone's reaction=(Y)(Y) Then we had to do map work? For our expedition, so drainingggg. T______T Supper~ briefing then pooof i'm off to bed!

The third day! We're setting off for our expedition! :D 10km hike! With my damn heavy baggggg, insturctor say 12kg?! =O SO HEAVYYYY!!!! I WAS LUGGING THAT ALL ALONG?! Breakfast was freshhh, I didn't eat though. We had 4 checkpoints to pass, Aunty's Farm, German Girl Shrine? The highhigh place with nicenice view of the QUARRY! and Npark~ So we hiked like damn long and farrrrr, I was reallly exhausted. We kept going the wrong route(INSTRUCTOR SAID) when we were actually right! And we finally reached thee first checkpoint! Aunty's Farm. She inspires me, ^^ Would you all be able to live all alone like her? In the forests? Without electricity? And food? Growing your own crops? She's amazing, :') Then zoooom, we hiked to the second checkpoint. German's Girl Shrine. There's a story behind the shrine, and I find it realy interesting. So yeahhh, read about the story if you want! :D I'll give two links, if you want to know.

http://www.sgkopi.com/ubin/2010/06/german-girl-shrine/

http://angeldust888.multiply.com/journal/item/12

So anyways, hiked to the next stop. The quarry! Reallyreally tiring. But the view from the top to look at the quarry, OMG. Breathtaking! (Y)(Y) I was all " WAHHHHHHHHH!! SO NICE!! WAHHHHHH!! " Bahaha. XD We shouted to hear echoooOOOo. Damn cool okay! :D The water was so clear, felt like jumping in! ^^ SO hikeeeeed till the last stop, Npark there! It's the entrance to Pulau Ubin la actually. Got to see the remains of an old bakery, coooliooooo. :B Then went to the garden behind! ^^ So, we hiked for a total of 8 hours!! =D omg amazingggg!! We're so strong! ^^ My legs became so toned after hiking, I was really happy. ^^ Everyone, if you would like to lose weight + get toned and pretty legs, go hiking!! With a bag heavy like #$%^& I thought I wouldn't be able to make it, cause that bag's overwhelming. X( SCARY DEY. It was really heavy at first and i couldn't take it but after awhile I got used to it! So it became light to mee~ Maggi for dinner damn shiok! :> Night duty best! With hamster all~ Got so many starssssss, the sky was oh so prettyyyyyyyyy! (STARSTRUCKED) The hike damn tiring la, but honestly , with Hillary with me, it's nothing already! :D Nothing's impossible. ^^ OBS has become a part of me~ OBS is my comfort zone!

On the fourth day, we went for our sea expedition! We built our raft in the morning and then set off! :) At first, it was pretty hard to coordinate. Hillary was STORMING! =( but that's good~ it got better and better after awhile~ and suddenly, JENGJENGJENG, our raft started sinking. :( So we panicked like mad, blew our whistles, raised our paddles, but the instructors couldn't hear us. We had no way out. Jellyfish in the sea. Cannot go on shore cause it's too dangerous. Got PFD also i scared. HAHAHHA KENTAL. But alhamdulillah, we made it through. :) I cried, hahahah crybaby neh. :( We finally reached and hiked back to camp!! ^^ When we reached, I truly felt like I was at home already. =D OBS IS MY HOME! Then we showered, had our dinner, pitched our tent and then baaaam, off to bed!

Sadly, the last day came. We had our breakfast and then did a life run, to reflect. We had to say our goodbyes and all after that. :'( I cried so badly. I miss you HILLARY!! =( Then we took the ferry, off we go homee. =< This OUTWARD BOUND CAMP HAS BEEN AMAZING. :') I've learnt so much. Thankyou. HILLARY, (L)

IT'S AN OUTWARD BOUND JOURNEY!

Okay so that sums up my Outward Bound Journey! ^^ So what's next? Oh yaaaa! The next day, Saturday, I had an SRC Carnival to go to. Damn tired, I was like T_______T everywhere I go. So then we playplayplay, then it started raining. So the carnival got postponed~ So the Sec 3s went to Bugis. ^^ Walked around playplayplay, they took neos. Then went home, ^^

Shopping at Giant! ^^ We bought ballball, snacks, blabla. :D Best! (Y)

Weeheehee~ ^^v

Ballball. :D

Okaay next up, team outing! :D On Yilin's birthday! ^^ So met maknae first early in the morning. Siapsiapsiap, then went to meet the rest! :D Trained down to Harbourfront. Went to walk around. Giant, ^^ to buy food and drinks. Then walked around. Bought Gongcha! =D Then walkwalkwalk around. Cotton On~ Bought Shimin's shirt then zoomzoom off we go to Sentosa~ Went there, found a seat. Settled down, changed blablabla then we started playinggg!

Sushiiiiiiiii~ :B

My banana wearing my shades! :B

Playplayplay sunburnt like hell again then Yilin finally came! :D Birthdayyyy girlllllll! =D We crossed the bridge, and went to the windywindy place! ^^

Yilin's mini birthday cake! We sang her a songgg. Mudpie ftw! (Y) ^^ Suprised her. :D weehee.

Went to met lil sis after that for dinner then homeee! That concludes my Team outing update! :D For the rest of the pictures, go to FANANA'S FACEBOOK YO! ^^ hehehe.

Kay, what's next? 2E2 Chalet? Okay can. I don't have pictures from the chalet, wahahaha. only one!

it's 3D2N! Trained downnn to Pasir Ris, it's like the other end leh! T________T Reached there, went to Macd first since it wasn't ready for check in. Drank cookie frappe, sho nicee! ^^ Then check in, ran to the chalet~ First thing go in jump on the bed, ^^ heheheh. Then we listened to songs, played games, sho sho much fun! :D Playplayplay the whole day. I don't eveb rmb what we did exactly. So the first day was like that... basically staying in. Minus most of them that went cycling. Watched the 9PM drama togetherrrr! Heheheh, mad luv. Then the second day, I went to the beach nearby to built sandcastles, ^^ and blow bubbles! :B Damn funnnnn! We went back, eat, watch drama make noise play. Then some of them head home. So yeah, stayed till the next day. Then, went homeeeeeee! HAHAHAHHA I don't really rmb much sorry yo~

So then school re-opened. Which meant......SPEECH DAY!! (Y)(Y) This year's Speech Day, really DAEBAKK! (L) Hehe. Had sho much fun. But being an emcee.......er. Okay la. :D Fun too! ^^ So, on Speech Day itself, gathered early to prepare. Met then, we changed siapsiap. Emcees went down to have our mics checked. Then he alarm rang. =O GOT FIRE! REAL ONE. Kecohkecoh all liao, then kelam kabut siappp. Then bammmm. The show startss! :D Prize presentation first~ confirm boringgg. Donedonedone~ Then the musical! (Y) They should've recorded it, it's damn nice. ^^ hehe. Finished everything, went crazeyyyyyyyy! Threw the stringy all over afiqa, birthday girl! :D Hehe. Went back to AVA room, even more crazeyyyyy hahahahha. Celebrated Afiqa's birthday! ^^ Hehehehe, crazyyyy shout scream ketawe lolololol, Then we went down to have our dinner! (Y)(Y) Dam nice. Ice Kachang. ^^ Got alot lehhhh. Went to jaypee with the restttt. Then HSH~ Sorry ame dah penat sangat nak update panjangpanjang. It was the BEST DAY EVERRRRRR~ Go fb find the pictures if you want kay~ ^^ It's at Miss Teo's profile.

Just to sum it up, SPEECH DAY WAS JUST AMAZING! I had a blast, ^^

After Speech Day, was THE AWESOMEEEEE SEC THREE ADVENTURE CAMP! (Y)(L)(Y)

But sadly, that + ummmmm SL project will come in the next post I guess! This post is too long le + I don't have the pictures for Camp yet. ^^ So till then, enjoy reading this. :D

Why? Why me?

2011-07-01T11:40:00.002+08:00

Broken up, deep inside.

But you won't get to see the tears I cry.

Justin Bieber. ♥

2011-07-01T10:42:00.003+08:00

If me and my girlfriend were fighting and it got to the point where she started crying, I would just SHUT UP and hold her. - Justin Bieber

i'm at the losing end, not you.

2011-07-01T10:17:00.004+08:00

Wassup babies. Cheyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. How's everyone doing? It's a Friday already, time really flies huh. The first week has gone by so quickly. The first day of school was pretty alright, no studying for me = (Y)(Y) been busy all week thanks to Speech Day preparations. I ABSOLUTELYYY LOVEEEE the Speech Day Crew this year. =')

Speech Day Preparations have been a blaaaaast. I'm gonna miss it so much. School's been draining my energy, LIKE A HELL LOT. Yeah. So life's been like that. Yknow, fucked up as always. But that's life right? Howell, I should get back to my HBL soon. Those going for Speech Day later on, SEE YOU~ (:

2011-07-01T10:01:00.003+08:00

I'll go out there and make my mistakes. I'll fall down, get hurt, cry, laugh, love and get back up. I'll stand on the highest mountaintop and go into the deepest caverns. I'll roam across the world, visit the moon, and swim in outer space. I'll let my imaginations run wild and let my spirit soar. Why? Because when life flashes before my eyes in those final moments, I want to have something worthwhile to watch, with plenty of love and laughter, good times and bad. I don't want to regret a thing and I plan not to. Remember, it's not usually the things you do that you regret, it's the things you don't do and leave unsaid. Laugh out loud. Cry in the rain. Love with all your hear and soul. Get hurt. Tell the truth. Go crazy. But never forget that you only get one shot. One shot at this day. one shot at this minute. One shot at this age. One shot at this life. So make sure your life is one you will enjoy watching in your final moments.

;tumblr.

2011-07-01T09:51:00.003+08:00

I constantly wonder how my life looks in other people's eyes. Do they think I have it easy? Do they think I have nothing going on for myself? Or are they fascinated with who I am? The thing is that no one will ever know my whole story. No one will ever know the things I had to overcome. Not even my closest friends, not even my own family. The thing is that people are so quick to judge nowadays. You only see a person from what they want and allow you to see. I always try to look as put together as I can, and I guess that's my way from hiding from the truth. It's just that way everyone will assume everything in my life is okay. That I never go through anything. If only everyone knew how broken I am, and how I'm holding on for dear life on this one last strand that's recently become very delicate. The truth is that no one really knows me. No one will ever know me, and sometimes that scares me, because no one will ever know why I am the way I am.

comeback.

2011-06-18T20:12:00.004+08:00

Soooo, I've been away from this USED-TO-BE-BELOVED space of mine for a pree long time already! So, like I said, life's been, as usual, packed~ meh. June holidays are flying past without me even realising there's like about 9 days till school reopens?! And I've yet to complete my homework. (GUILTY LIKE FUUUUU) WHICH I WILL COMPLETE SOON!!

So, hols have been about.

▼ OBS CAMP!! AMAZING! :') Will blog about it, sooooon! Must write my adventure downnnnn! ^^

▼ SRC Carnival

▼ Going out

▼ More going out

▼ Team outings going out again blaaaaa noraebang shopping

▼ Even more going out

▼ Badly Sunburnt

▼ 2E2 Chalettttt!

▼ STUDYING!!

▼Netball~

▼ Recovering ;)

▼ And blablablablabla~

So, yeah! Shall update about......hmmmm. Okay about chalet and OBS!! Yup, next post coming at ya~ ;) I hopee teeheee. Soooo! Today is a Saturday!! Mehhhh. Had our postponed SRC Carnival today~ a little disappointed but howell! I had a blaaaaaast! Team is the best, NO MATTER WHAT. (L) :D Played all the way~ damn tired afterwards. Went to eat lunch with teamteam, ^^ MacD! kekekekeke. Must start my healthyshitstuff againnnnnnn mannnnnn. Abslegsblabla im coming at ya, ;) 600 situps a day!! I CAN DOOOO IT!!! Plus all my stretchiingexercisesblablabla. Walkwalk around jaypee with Jiamin and Yilin after that~ WAIT. My post is full of exclamation marks. Pardon me, I don't really know why I'm so excited bahahahah. XD

I SRZLY WANT ALOT OF SOFTTOYS. T^T *screamssssssss. INFINITE SHOPPING LIST FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU. MONEY JUST DROP FROM THE SKY ALREADY!! Fuuuuuuuu. I shall save well, from now on. ;D Jiayouuuuuuu! ^^ Ah go go go! So...... I AM SUDDENLY SO LOST FOR WORDS I'M SO SORRY!! I'm always like this! X( So, until the next post then~ Find me on twitter! =D

TEAM=LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! ♥

AME AI XI NI MEN~ LOVE DIE YOU ALL, ^^

the sunshine after the rain.

2011-06-05T16:42:00.005+08:00

BOOOOOO! Did I scare you? Hehehe. ^^ Anyeong everyone! :D It's been sooooooooooo looooooooooooong. So, yeah. I can't update on everything, cause there's too much. But, bits and pieces here and there will do.

So, the exams have finally ended. Been through such an emotional rollercoaster. Lifelife, *sigh. Anyways, for the very first time ever, I did VERY badly for my exams. And I'm not bragging nor kidding. I really did so. And I mean it. So yeah. That's explains part of my depression. But neh, I'm gonna study during the June holidays too so ame hwaiting! =) So anywayssssss, for the past few idk how long i've not been updating posts.

My life's been well..........BUSY. HAHAHA USUALS. Before the exams, studying like mad and sleepovers with @amaleenaa and @fanananana. The best really, (Y)(Y) so yeah, studystudystudy. Exams overrrrrr and hell yeah, the three of us went to town! ^^ mad happy~ go look for their fb for the pictures, cause i lazy upload hehe. :P

Then got our results back slack in sch blablablabla. I'm back into my forever kpop spazzing mode. ;) Kekeke. But anywaysssss, the June hols started. And I just came back from my 5D4N OBS camp! Damn fuuuuuuuuun. Lazy elaborate, but there was a 10km hike with my 12kg bag~ took us 7 hours! Then 5 hours of rafting~ for 5km! Too much times together, I can't bear to leave OBS ;( But yeaaaaah, I'm back from Friday afternoon. And yesterday, had SRC Carnival. We played for awhile and it go postponed due to the rain! Wow, god bless. I was so tired alr. Went to Bugis with teammates. Sho much fun~ hehe. So when I got home...... used lappy watched Nancy Drew and crashed on bed. I had a 15hours sleep! :D Felt so goooooooooood~ hehe. I felt so upset I didn't go for the KPOP HEAL THE WORLD CONCERT!!!!!! :'((((((((( SRZLY OKAY. So i watched fancams at home today! :( sad much.

Buuuuut, i won't miss out anymore. NO FREAKINGGGG WAY. And, thanks to the carnival yesterday, I missed out on the freaking flea. =( Nuuuuu. FINALLY cleaned my room today~ weeee. Busy scehdules ahead~ look out for my updates. www.twitter.com/amekittykatzx or bomb me with questions http://www.formspring.me/amekittykatzx

For now, this my kind of life? Busy lorrrrrrr. krrrrrr. See ya all around muffins~

Damn I missed them so much. =( and lots of others too. :(

2011-05-20T20:12:00.001+08:00

"Live life fully while you’re here. Experience everything. Take care of yourself and your friends. Have fun, be crazy, be weird. Go out and screw up! You’re going to anyway, so you might as well enjoy the process. Take the opportunity to learn from your mistakes: find the cause of your problem and eliminate it. Don’t try to be perfect; just be an excellent example of being human."

- Tony Robbins

2011-05-20T20:10:00.001+08:00

"I don’t know what it is, I just cry sometimes. Maybe I’m too oblivious to the things going on around me, that I don’t realize that I’m hurting as much as I am, so when the tears stream down my face, and I don’t have anything to say, don’t ask me why I’m crying. Because I simply don’t know."

2011-05-20T20:09:00.001+08:00

"It doesn’t matter where you’re from, or how you’re raised or what you have to go through. You can do whatever you want, if you just put your mind to it. I was really close to giving up and it just proves don’t ever do that because right whenever you are about to give up something great really really happens."

- Brittani Kline, America’s Next Top Model Cycle 16

it's been long.

2011-05-15T23:12:00.003+08:00

I miss it so bad. Honestly, I really do wish that I could do it again. Running 3-4 miles. You’re out of breath. You’re muscles hurt and ache. You feel like you can’t keep going. Your heart is pounding. Your arms are numb and its almost as if you want to stop. But you don’t. You keep going, until you finish. Honestly, my favorite thing about running was the idea that I finish a race or a run. It hurts sooo much as you keep going. But once you reach the end, its all worth it. Not many girls liked to do long distance, but honestly, I LOVE it. I wasn’t the best but that didn’t matter. I just liked to keep going. That’s it. You keep going and going and going. Everything hurts and its almost as if you’re ready to stop. But you don’t. I loved the feeling of finishing a run or a race. But the best feeling for me, was when I kept pushing myself while running.

drained.

2011-05-07T22:51:00.005+08:00

I'll make up for the previous few or alot of posts soon. It's the exaaaaaam season~ i think i'm gonna flunk a hell lot of subjexts this year, DAMN. Been studying alot, what else? I need to study my ass off to pass, which I doubt I will even. But, howell~ at least I tried. Afterwhich, my busy schedule is coming to get me again!

Am so drained from all the studying and exams and nonsense. Time should just pass faster for this misery to end. Oh well~ I should stop procrastinating. I spent my day, on the usuals, KPOP, download watch shows nonsense blablabla. (Y)(Y) Look foward to my detailed post next time! ;) I love you all~

no more picturessss. T^T

2011-04-26T13:53:00.005+08:00

Hi to all those still coming back to my pathetic-almost-dying blog! I know I've been neglecting it for a rather long time. Sorry! Blame it on school and my always busy stupeed schedule. School is killing me. I want to give up already. Well, at least I'm still alive~

So currently life's been about

- STUDYSTUDYSTUDY and more STUDYING

- Mugging for MYE!

- Saving up for my foreverinfinite shoppinggg. $.$ (like always, but always fail)

- MY AWSOMEBUSY LIFE.

I think, that's about it. I spent my weekdays in school. (DUH) and my weekends...mostly outside? Yeah. Last week hal-muh-neeh slept over ma housie for two days from Saturday till Monday~ Heck yeah. Studying on Saturday, plus playing at IMM's water park. ^^ + town on Sunday~ fun maxx. Long bus rides are the bombbb!

Buttttt, I must start mugging already. Honestly. I've not been doing well for MATH!! Dammit. I'm so screwed I tell you. =( Blame my carefree-ness. But I won't stop trying!! Even if I fail my MYE. So, yeah. Help meeeeeeeee!! I'm gonna study hard, and make it thru. :) I HOPE.

I guess I won't be updating much, I GUESS. BUT I'LL TRYYYYYY! Follow me on twitter~ I'm most active thereeee! Or my formspringggg. So for now, anyeonggggg!

twitter.com/amekittykatzx

AMIRAH♥

2011-04-19T21:05:00.003+08:00

Amirah, I won't ever forget you. How much I've been through with you, how much we've bonded together throughout all those times together, those fights, those KPOP dances together, everything. And here we are, still standing, closer to each other than ever. I don't think words can ever explain how much you mean to me. How much I'm gonna miss you. So, don't forget me okay? Cause I will NEVER forget you. :') Remember to stay strong alright? Rmb uhh, don't give up the whole forest for just a tree. Good things come to those who wait. =) Be happy! I'll miss you alot. Especially B DIV'10. Do well for O's. Hwaiting! Take care, ILOVEALLOFYOU. :')

formspring dey.

2011-03-25T22:49:00.002+08:00

will update reaaaaal soon. once I rested enough. Hope it's a lengthy post. =) As for now, to make up for it,

http://www.formspring.me/amekittykatzx

school kills my soul.

2011-03-13T17:30:00.007+08:00

Suuuup. I'm playing with my sis's watchie~ =D Ehehe, but I like mine better. ^^ Okaays, update! It's been.....two-three weeks? So hopefully I rmb what I did! Mehhhh.

So for the past ummmm idk two-three weeks? I left this blog hanging, though I keel making promises after promises after promises to update, I failed to do so. =( I am so fucked up. I hate empty promises and yet I am doing this to my dear bloggeh. =( Forgive meeeee. I will try my best to update everyday. =')

Honestly, school for the past few weeks has been hectic. It sucks, really. I have nothing to look foward to anymore. I'm coming for the sake of coming. I'm flunking everything. I'm such a failure. Been staying back to study alot. But still, does it pay off? N-O. So tell me, what's the point. My weekends are spent outside most of the time. Either going out. Or studying/mugging at home. SUCKS. Yeah. Apologies since I don't rmb what I did, clearly. But yeah.

I gave school a miss today. Wow. I'm so screwed tml. Can't believe I could actually bear to give a school a miss despite the fact that there is training today. Wow. I can't believe myself. K whtevr. K bye.

no one but you. fix.me.

2011-03-09T22:50:00.003+08:00

Tired of everything, tired of nothing. And I just want someone to be there and tell me it's okay. But no one's going to be there. And I know I have to be strong for myself, because no one can fix me.But I'm tired of waiting. Tired of having to be the one to fix my own self and everyone else. Tired of being strong. And for once, I just want it want it to be easy. To be simple. To be helped. To be saved, But I know it won't be. But I'm still hoping. And still wishing. And still staying strong and fighting, with tears in my eyes. I'm fighting.

2011-03-09T22:45:00.001+08:00

"You had me. You had me and then you left. It has nothing to do with me, it’s all about you. And it’s always been about you: what you need and what you want. You know, it seems like you only want me when you can’t have me. You like the chase and that’s all. So you know what? You can have it."

2011-03-07T21:17:00.003+08:00

At some point you will realize that you have done too much for someone, that the only next possible step to do is to stop. Leave them alone. Walk away. It's not like you're giving up, and it's not like you shouldn't try. It's just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation. What is truly yours will eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.

losing myself in emptiness.

2011-03-06T21:36:00.002+08:00

Hello~ Missed me? Look at this blog! So abandoned. *blows dust off. Bet nobody's coming back to read already. Sorry x 9999 ! Okay....... Let's check. The last update was on a Saturday?! The fuck it's been 3 or 2 weeks? Or a MONTH? Friggin' hell. I bet this post's gonna be a looooong! Keep reading if you want to! ;)

Saturday, 12 February

So, yeahhh. I did went to meet Afiqa and we went for CHINGAY! =D SO SO MUCH FUN. Grey pullover. Acid washed skin tight jeans. Red Boots. (Y) We missed out stop in the train cause we were so busy day dreaming~ Reached Promenade. Seeseesee. I got a free FAN!! ^^ Shiok~ Met our schoolmates, went berserkkk. Went to the redblueyellow pretty swing! ^^V Then we got hungry and went to MacD to eat. And zoooom off we went home and reached around 11+ ?

Sunday, 13 Feb

Went out with little sis. Borinnnnnnggggggg. We went to get kOi walk here thre here thre shop shop buy Valentine's giftsss then homed.

Monday~ 14 Feb,

Happy Valentines' Day! :D MacD early in the morning as always. Wasted my fucking time cause I didn't know how to do Bio. The fuck srzly? Went to sch. Usual shits. Gave everyone sweets. ^^ Match with CCK. Last match for first round. WE MADE IT INTO SECOND ROUND~ (Y) Great job teammates! (L) We fought hard, and we're gonna fight even harder for the second round! =D Met ---- afterwards. Went to sch. Blablabla. Bullshit.

Tuesday, 15 Feb

School.sucks. Srzly. Training after sch? Was it? KK I DON'T RMB SHIT. OMFG. Sorry =( Anywayssss. Yeah. Homed. Hw marathon all the way~ Darn. My 2PM wallet got dirtyyy! ='( *cries.

Wednesday, 16 Feb

Got up early to go to MacD to well, studayeee. Yakult in the morning to perk me up. (Y) Physics test = FAIL~ (N)

Thursday, 17 Feb

Boringboringboring day. Stayed back aftr school for i don't rmb what? Blablabla~ Peppero + Soya Beans + Gummy Bears = (Y)(Y) Yadayadayada. Went home~ Went out again to meet isk to return his book. Then with ----. Homed at night~

Friday, 18 Feb

I got up fucking lateeee. Rush like a mad person. Sch went normallll. Zoooom home after school to get my stuffies. Training was =( SAAAADENING NEWS. *sigh. Everyone cried like nobody's business. B Div, stay strong. Everyone, stay strong. Train hard, and fight for Coach! (L)

Saturday, 19 Feb

I spent the whole fucking day at home. Fuck.

Sunday, 20 Feb

Filming with group mates. HELLA FUN! (L) Had a blast. Mango Tank. Aeropostale Hoodie. Red Boots. (Y) kOi. *sigh. Homed at nightttt.

Monday, 21 Feb

School. Mundane. Detention for 4 hours. THE FUCK? Yeah, wasted my life. Went home. Hell of a day.

Tuesday, 22 February

School. SUCKS. Match with NHH @ RV. Rained after first quarter, POSTPONED. Nice. (Y)

Wednesday, 23 Feb

Latee. Left school early for re-match with NHH. DARN GOOD FIGHT!~ (L) Ate our lunchie there. Went back to school, Physics re-test~ BORING ZZZZZ. Went back to school. Playplayplay. Went home with ----

.................................... Yeah............ I DIED.

Thursday, 24 Feb

I SPENT THE DAY AT HOME. GOODBYE AME.

Friday, 25 Feb

Came for the match. Match with CTS. (N)

Saturday, 26 Feb

Went out with Zack. Walkwalkwalkwalkwalk. Pepper Lunch. (Y)

Sunday, 27 Feb

I FORGOT. K.

Monday, 28 Feb

I FORGOT. K. Oh match with BP at NHH. Went back to sch. Blablablabla. K DON'T RMB.

Tuesday, 1 March.

I FORGOT. K.

Wednesday, 2 March

I FORGOT. K.

Thursday, 3 March

I FORGOT. K.

Friday, 4 March

Netball Partayeeee in school. (Y) Rocks maximum. From the games to the food to everything. =) Teared so much. :( *sigh.

Saturday, 5 March

Umm. Met SJB! early to do our pressie. DO DO DO DO till like evening? Fun~ Bought sushi then headed to afiqa's house. We went berserk, I swear. (Y)

TODAY

Went to Coach's farewell party. =( The food was great, I had fun. BUT COAAAAAAACH. =( Went walkwalkwalkwalk then to fanana's housie to slaaaack then here I am at home.

Anyways, I'm DONE FUCKING UPDATING. Briefly. I go out too much. So I'm sorry I don't rmb the details. SO WHEN I FORGET MEANS IDK WHRE I WENT. SORRY~ Imma noob like that. Just know I forget. Can le. And I went out. Can le. K bye. I promised myself to knock out at 9.30! It's now 9.33!! I'M 3 MINUTES LATEEEEE FUCKKKKKK. K bye. Better updates. If I want to. And hopefully PICTURES.

don't.fucking.know.me.at.all.

2011-02-19T14:39:00.000+08:00

You think you know everything about me, just by looking at me, but you really don't. You don't know all of my thoughts, feelings and emotions. You don't know my memories from the past or my dreams and ambitions for the future. So don't judge me based on my appearance, because you truly have no idea about me.

between the lines.

2011-02-15T22:17:00.001+08:00

I’m fucking tired. I’m tired of caring for people who don’t give a shit about me. I’m tired of thinking things will be different, yet they never change. I’m tired of giving out chances, only to be let down. I’m tired of putting forth 100% of an effort and only getting 25% in return. I’m tired of broken promises. I’m tired of let downs by the people who matter most to me. I’m tired of making someone a priority, when in reality I’m just a number to them. I’m tired of shitty friends who are never there for me. I’m tired of self centered assholes, who only manipulate a situation from their own perspective, never even thinking about what someone else is going through. I’m so tired of the same old bullshit over and over again.

2011-02-12T14:18:00.000+08:00

HAWWWWOOOOO =3 Hehe, how's the week been for you all? Definitely exhausting as always for meeee~

Sunday: Was boring. I chiong-ed hw all the way~ weehee. Went to cuzzie's housie in the evening to help out with thingys. Storytelling session at night, while studying! <: I still got a booboo on my nose!! >=( It hurts.

Monday: Met bestfriend early at MacD. Studystudystudy then off to school! School is boring as always. Am struggling so hard to keep up with everything. Darn it. I don't rmb what I did after schooool!! Okay wait. I think I stayed back for no apparent reason~ and waited for bby. HAHAS. XD So he reached damn late at around like......6.4o plusplus around 7? Then blablabla ;) Hehe. We went home around 9 plusplus. Reaached home so late, so tireeeed. A hell shitload of hw to do, so I stayed up so damn latee. But heck, I didn't even complete it. (Y)

Tuesday: Training on Tuesday~ fucking shit I fucking fell down!! Sprained ankle. >=( WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK. STUPID LEG STUPID ANKLE STUPID ME STUPID CLUMSY BLUR DUMB FUCK. Can I just not fucking fall for one day?! Srzly!! Okay, whtevr. My eyes couldn't open, I was running a feverrr. So, I decided to get some rest first before studying for the damn alot of tests & HW on Wednesday~ I did get up at 2AM! =D And amazingly, everything went into my braaaain! So studied till like 4? Then I went back to sleep.

Wednesday: Got up at 5 plus, and left the house early to study early at MacD. TEST OHHHH TEST!! I couldn't keep my eyes open at all!! I kept sleeping. Glad I studied already~ the Bio test at school WAS FUCKING DUMB!!! Omg, if I knew I wouldn't have studies srzly!! What I studied didn't come out!! >=( ALL DRAWINGS YOU THINK I TAKE ART UH~ Whtevr. School went out mundane-ly. SS test after school. chiongchiongchiong. Hope I pass. =) Self-trained afterwards with the Sec Threes. (L) I fell down again!! >=( Grazes on my chin and knee!! =( They banned me from playing after that~ So I sat but bugged them to let me play. Blablabla, went out with bby and hal-muh-neeh. Then blablabla, ;D Went home around 7, plush-ish? Home, hw all the wayyyyyy!! >=( I wrote my essay about ants fighting. =3

Thursday: West Zones. Gruelling match. THIS IS THE MATCH WE'VE ALL BEEN ANTICIPATING. AND WE WON!!!!! ='D Omgahhh, I am so darn happy! Well done, B Div' Girls. ^-^ And the sun neh give chance sia that day!! Damn bloody hot. So like duh.....i'm sunburnt! =( And my skin itches. Went back to school, studied awhile. Then, met bestfriend. She gave me a box of Kinder Joy!! =D AHHHHH MAD HAPPY!! It comes with free toys and a frisbee also~ Weehee. ^^

Friday: Yakult in the morning. (Y) I lost my favourite headband!! >=( Went to support junior's match at Nanyang Girls'~ They fought so hard~ :D Rained heavily suddenly. So, the match was postponeeeeed! =D Jiayou girls! :D Went back to school for awhile then went back homee with bestfriend. :D

So, it's a Saturday today! =D Pardon me for the wordy post~ I don't take pictures in sch~ AHAHA. XD So I'm going out later with AFIQA JIEJIE! =D CHINGAAAAY~ Weehee. I haven't decided what to wear yet, fuuuuuuuck. So yeahh. Might be meeting bby before her if possible, ;D I'll update once I'm back, with PICTURES. I TRY. Bbye~

bed head.

2011-02-06T14:02:00.001+08:00

Tml's Monday alr~ Omgiaaaaaat so fast!! DAMN. And there's no match tml, which means I have to wear my tieeee and choke myself! D= That just sucks. On the brighter note, I have something to look fowards to already when I'm going to school nao! =D Weehee. The CNY Holidays have been pretty much useless to me, SRZLY.

I didn't go out much neither did I study much. So I was such a couch potato for the past idk how many days! OMGOODNESS IMAGINE THE SHITLOAD AMOUNT OF JUNK I CONSUMED. OMG THE CALORIES!! >=( Later stamina go down = I DIEEEE. Okay no, I MUST STOP EATING THIS JUNK DIET. But srzly, there was nothing to do. All the shops were closed, I wanted to go out budden ppl can't make it so yeah whtever~ I enjoyed staying at home and watching Pocoyo! =D And other awesome shows too. (Y)

Not that I'm not appreciative of the holidays, buuuuut I had a good break! =) After being exhausted for so looooong~ But lazing around at home just makes me want to sleep more. Heck. So.....sadly that's my holidays. Me rotting. So I went over to my cuzzie's house just nao to help out with some stuffies. Theeeeeen, I'm back home! Weehee. I'm saving $$$ ! Woohoo. Infinite shopping list, wait for me. ;)

i luff you. =3

2011-02-05T18:57:00.001+08:00

Wasssssup. u__u Okay first things firstttttt, BABY'S BAAAAAACK! =D Wooohooo, I'm back to being the cheerful playful happy me! So I broke my promise (LIKE DUH) and I'm so sowwwiiii. I think I won't be able to do everyday updates =( Sowwwwwwwiiiiiii. So anyways, besides the looong update I need to do, I owe you all two updates! The aweshuuum 21st & picnic day. Sooooo, here we goooooo~

The 21st was my birthday. I'm very thankful (again) for this year. My birthday has been aweshuuuum. Thankyou everyone who wished me, I will NEVARR forget chu. =D My awesome friends gave me a suprise, I was so touched to tears srzlyyyyyy. Keke, you guys are the best! *hugs. My sis even gave me a cake 3 days before my birthday! Kanchiong much~ :D Hehe. My family got my favourite HAZELNUT cake too, on my birthday of course! ='D My awesome present from bestfriend too, THANKYOU SO MUCH EVERYBODY! ^^ Our first West Zone match was with Unity~ and we won! ^^ Everything went well except for the fact I fell and injured myself. SO I WASN'T ABLE TO PLAY! ='( So I cried like a motherfucking loser. Srzly. But we won, so that's okaay. =') Thanks girls for the birthday song! ^^ And for caring so much, I love you all to bits! (L) Waited for awesomes after the match then off we go~ I limped my way home and got laughed at! >=( CURSE YOUUUU. Chey~ Went home then out for dinner with familyyyyy! :D Weehee. Stingray = (Y) So overall, my birthday has been to amazing for me to even describe in words properly. I'm very grateful for everything, thankyou everyone. (L) ='D

Then the picnic I went~ OKAY I DON'T RMB WHEN. OH MANNNNN MY STM!! >=( Sorry!

So my leg was doing quite okay then~ OH OH!! I rmb~ It was a Sunday! :D On the 23rd~ Okay yayyyyyy =D So I went for a picnic with my family! Got spaghetti! :D Nyummy max. Playplayplay with sand, bike blablabla eateat nomnom. And we went to the Safety Park? Yeah, I think that's it. =D

OH OH! This heavy thingy (IDK WHAT IT'S CALLED) at the fake petrol station darn heavy!! >=(

So I was finally happy we got out of that heavy thingy bike petrol filling place! =D

Anyways, lemme storytell something really funny that happened on that day. I was riding darn fasttttt on this bicycle we rented. AND MY SISTER DIDN'T TELL ME THAT THE BRAKES WERE FAULTY OMGIATTTT. So I rode like bloooody fast and when I was about to slow down and turn, I WASN'T ABLE TO DO SO AND I CRASHED INTO A BLOODY TREEEEE!! >=( Fucking clumsy can.

Moving along, where did I stop updating~ Oh! On Sunday.

Monday: West Zone. Match with Dunearn. We won, ^^ Everything went well, minus the rainy weather and slippery floor. School? Boring as always. Mundaneeee.

Tuesday: Trained the Sec Ones after school. Mega tiring. Srzly. OUR JUNIORS WON! =D I had a stack of hw to be done when I went home. 3 essay. SHIT. FUCK. I didn't do all so yeah, I was practically in deep shit.

Wednesday: Met bestfriend and the rest early in the morning at MacD. BUT GUESS WHAT. I DECIDED NOT TO DO MY HW! T^T butter bun + cold soya bean in the morning = (Y) Hehe. Went home~ Siapsiap met hal-muh-neeh & Hazrul ibu then walkwalkwalkwalk at jaypee. Fucking bullshit. _|_ then had to rush home. NBCBCCB. Okay whtever~

Thursday: BORING SHIT DAY. Was such a couch potato! Watched shows after shows after shows. Drew triangles everywhere. Omgiaaaat. BUT GUESS WHAT?! BBY'S COMING BACK THE NEXT DAAAAAAAY~ weeheee. I watched Pocoyo the whole day. ^-^

Friday: I WOKE UP AT 6~ Cause I couldn't wait for bby to come home. Buuut sadly, he wasn't back yet. =( Buuuuuudennnn JENGJENGJENG I got a text around noon and BBY'S BAAAACK!!

='D Omgiaaaat, my life has been hell without chu. So glad he's back. :D Oh anywaysss~ went out for another picnic. With relatives too. :D Sho much fun. Laughters. Nonsense jokes. I fell alot too while riding~ =( HAHAS. I didn't get to rollerblade either!! >=( SO THAT MADE ME WEALLY UPSET. No I'm serious. I was so looking foward to it! Okay anywayssss. You see the blue and orange tent in the photo? It's beh niceeee! =D Looveeeee it. Went home at night~ Got my MacD frappe + fries + burger = YAY! =D keke. Lil sis used my laptop while I started dancing away like no tml~ OMG (Y) want to go clubbing~ chey. Then I got so tired. I was planning to do my hw. Budden I danced too much so I crashed in bed. Keke. But I managed to talk longlonglong with my cayanggggg, hal-muh-neeh! WOOHOOO~ (Y) HAHAHA.

So I was supposed to spent tday with SUPA LUV~ (L) Keke. I mean bby and PENCIL and ERASER~ But bby couldn't make it. So yeah, there goes my happy rollerblading Saturday =( ! I was so upset!! I kicked everything and starting throwing a fit. OMG. HAHAHA. Serious, my mum got pissed off. So mummy and sis went out without me~ Cause I decided to stay home. Hmph~ Used the lappy for like, the whole day? =O And bby was busy tryna cheer me up. Sho cuute, I swear. He drew stuff for me. =D So anywayssss, TONIGHT I MUST STAY UP TO FINISH MY HWS! Else I don't know when I'll finish it. Heehee. So there'a a Harry Potter Marathon on teevee nao, and I'm so gonna watch it while doing my hw! =) AND I NEED TO GO SHOPPING SOOON!! MY.INFINITE.SHOPPING.LISST. =D Weehee. $$$ plz fall from the sky~ okay bye. Hope I can go out with bby tml, ^^

Eraser + Pencil = (L)

Kittykat + Spideyboy = (L)

Eraser + Pencil + Kittykat + Spideyboy = SUPA LUVVVV. (L)

I'll be with you like a shadow.

2011-01-30T22:22:00.000+08:00

Even though we're miles apart

I will hold you down just like a soldier

Cos I'm yours and you stole my heart

Love you got the key

No matter the time or the distance apart

I'll be with you, just close your eyes

Baby, wherever you are

i miss bby. =(

2011-01-30T21:15:00.000+08:00

I broke my promise, again. =( Sorry! I shall hurryhurry update nao, NO PROCRASTINATING!

Monday was Wenfang's birthday! :D Yay yay! Met bestfriend in the morning for breakfast, and to complete our homeworks of course. Drank soya bean, :D Weehee. West Zonals. Match with RVHS~ =( Sad dey. But everyone tried their best, :) Met bestfriends afterwards, then homee!

Tuesday is pretty much boring. Overload of subjects, seriously school sucks. I dowan study!! >=( Training after school, went home with bestfriends again. H2H talk, tears. =( Love them, :')

Wednesday's a late daay. But due to the fucking homeworks, I woke up early to meet bestfriends and complete 'em! Gummy bears in the morning, (Y) Stayed back in school for awhile to complete my hws with bestfriend. Sent her off, then waited for (L) ~ Home with bby. ^^

West Zone. Game with Jurongville on Thursday, YAYYYY! :D Mehehe. Cher treat ice longan drink, yay yay! ^^ Went back to school to meet bestfriends, home together. =D My legs ache like $%^

Friday is a short day! Woohoo~ Watched the match vid after school with netballers, then off we go. ( ME AND AMANINA) Met loves, spent our time at the canteeeeennnn. Then OUUUUUT we go, *ehemehem. *kening upup. Today has been amazing (L)

Woke up early in the morning to help out with the hosting of West Zone at our school, :D Met Yilin at Macd, we got our breakfast. Juicy Filet O Fish + Ice Milo = (Y) yummy max. Konglong late, then give us Kinder Bueno! Yayy! =D Tons of fun with the juniors afterwards, ^^ From speech reharsal, to walking around jaypee aimlessly. I bought SPIDERMAN erasers for me & (L) ~ Hehe. ^^ Went home. Went out in the evening with family and relatives. ^^ I WAS MEGA TIRED STANDING AND FALLING ASLEEP EVERYWHRE. But I'm so glad I woke up in time to text bby, :)

Today is really saaaaad, NO I'M SERIOUS. =( bby left alr, SO HAO NAO. 5 more days till he's back, huuuuuuury come home okay!! Time please fly pastttttt quickly, I can't stand the past 13 hours already! ='( I.have.to.distract.myself.for.the.next.few.days. Aiseh. Pushing that aside, there's West Zone tml. Got match again~ Jiayou girls! :D I need to update on the Picnic day and the 21st~ soon! =D

Oh Oh! LOOK AT ME STYLING MY HAIR WITH ONLY ONE SIDE OF MY MAKEUP ON! D=

time will pass you by.

2011-01-23T23:08:00.000+08:00

See! I kept my promise to y'all. Thou I'm pretty much knocked out sleeepy right nao, I guess that's no excuse for me to neglect this space of mine. :] Time check: 11:12 No suprise, Im always late by 1 minute to make my wish. *shrugs. Howell. I'm up so late doing my hws! English & Bio. Bio's kiling my braincells, srzly. Can't be bothered to do it no more~ I guess I shall make plans to meet bestfriend early in the morning tml to complete it at MacD? Yeahhhhh, sounds good. Oh yeah yeah~

Today I went to the beach! Fuck yeah. (Y) So when the pictures are uploaded, today's and the 21st's which is Friday~ Go find that nice update okie~ Oh! Next zonal match tml, hell scared. Jiayou girls! :D Tml's Monday~ which means, OMG TIE!! T^T URGH HATE THAT CHOKING OBJECT! >=( Okay, whtever. It's 11.22 nao. And I think (L) fell asleep on me. Cutee~ Okay, shh. Gonna hit the sheets. Have a great week ahead everyone! B)

purely description.

2011-01-15T21:04:00.001+08:00

Wasssssuuuuup \m/ Life's been hectic, usuals. Been trying to find the time to update with posts, but howell, i always end up doing it boringly on the weekends.

So I don't remember what I did on Sunday. HAHAHA SORRY THAT'S THE REASON WHY I WANT TO UPDATE EVERYDAY! TROLOLOL. I CAN'T RMB FUCK MY STM. URGH. >=( OMG SRZLY WHAT DID I DO?! Heck.

Tie day on Monday! >=( Urgh hate that, released early thou. Went to jaypee to get school file shitzx then bought my nyummy Korean noodles! Headed home after that. Zack & Frank came over my housie. Slaaaaaack. Inside jokes. (Y) Phone call with bestfriend at night. Y^___^Y

Tuesday was URGH REALLY MAD FRUSTRATING! >=( CAUSE WELL THE AMOUNT OF BOOKS+FILES I NEED TO CARRY TO SCHOOL WAS REAALLY HUUUGE! I had to get my sis to carry some to school for me. I couldn't even handle the stack I was bringing to the interchange~ HAHAHAS. Seriously the day went on with so much bullshit. Glad netball cheered me up, as usual ;) AND I LEFT ALL MY HW IN SCHOOL WTF.

Wenesday was one of the days since I laughed alot. All thanks to Sabri+Noel and friends~ keke. TictacToe, ScissorsPaperStone, Hangman + HWs. (Y) The stomach cramps the laughs gave me, owwww. Finally I got to smile so widely, :) Went homee. Bulgogi Chicken for dinner! (Y) Nyummy max. Hehe.

Thursday went on.....like that? Studied a lil and I couldn't concentrate so trained with the netballers. :D Left at about 6 plusplus. Bulgogi Chicken for dinner again! X)

Training after school on Friday. SJB/ehemehem came over to my housie as usual, slackslacktalktalkchange~ then zooooom off we go to training! So sad we couldn't get to train at the ISH or Parade Square but at the FREAKING HALL! Hehe. For the first time, I heard her praise me. X) The juniors were the best, my $$ was gone. So, they all fed me foooood! (L) them to bits. Been eating Kinder Joy so much these days! (L) YOU GUYS MUST EAT IT OKAYS, IT'S LIKE HEAVEN~ plus there's a free toy! ^^ so what's there not to like =D OH YAAAAA, the fixtures for West Zone is out too! XD Met Sabri at night to exchange sweets hehex. I GOT 216 GRAPE CHWEING GUM AND I SWALLOWED ONE! XD Sorry, I'm dumb like that.

Flag day on Saturday~ mega boring. Trained down to Raffles with Derrick, Frank, Jeslyn, Isaac, Raymind, Joseph and Kevin~ =D Loveeee the city view. I had so much fun with them, :) Thou my mood was pretty much ruined that day. CAUSE OF THIS STUPEED WORKER AT BK! But at least I got to eat my Hershey's Sundae Pie ^^ Went home to change then went out with them again~ BUGIS. Hahas. Walk here there here there. Neos + kOi = (Y) The games that made my have a tiny bleedy cut! >=(

Sunday was spent with Kevin and Raymond~ Met Kevin in the afternoon. Went over to his housie there, played pool. Completed some of my hws, AND KEVIN DOODLED ON MY HW!! >=( OMG I SHOULD SRZLY SHOW YOU WHAT HE DREW. Basketball then homeee~ I had fun, ^^

Monday was srzly boringggggg~ THE STUDIES BORED THE SHIT OUT OF ME. A MATHS Y YOU SO IRRITATING?! Trained a lil after school. Then studied with SJB/ehemehem + Kevin and Raymond~ Fun hahahas. ^^ I still suck at ScissorsPaperStone thou =( THAT IS SAD.

5 fucking periods of Maths and A Maths on Tuesday. What a torture, seriously. There was P.E and Netball too. Imagine the fuckload of crap I was carrying wimme. Made me shrink! =( To make things worse, I forgot to bring a shitload of things home. My shoebag. My STUDENT HANDBOOK WHICH I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT! =( My English book. Whatthefuckingfuck. To make things even worse, I got new injuries! >=( WHY AM I SO DUMB AND CLUMSY WHY.

Fuuuuck. I was late on Wednesday~ Thanks to _____. Got a hell of a scolding. Glad the rest of the day turned out fine. :) Apple juice drink after school. (Y) I won Sabri in tictactoe yay~ I pasted a hell lot of Salon Pas to my injuries. So fucking mad with myself. >=(

Went to meet the usuals early in the morning on Thursday, FIRST TIME SIAAAA. BLOODY EARLY, T^T School? Boring as usual, what's new. Spent the rest of my day with Jeslyn, Kevin, the usuals. (= Isaac came too, :D

As for Friday, I'll make a seperate post. Cause it's a special day. So I'll wait for the pictures to be uploaded, =D Be patient kaaaaaaysssss~

Today I spent my day at home trying to walk NORMALLY! Omg nao I know hao it feels like, imma treasure my two legs =( Yeahhhh. Whole slack day for me to get well, elevate ice elevate ice. Limplimp.

Anywaysssss, I know I know I haven't been updating. And BUSY isn't a reason nor an excuse. So from nao on, I MUST MAKE A PROMISE TO MYSELF THAT I MUSTTTTT BLOG EVERYDAY! =D HAO'S THAATTTTT~ So I don't really want to go into further details of my life, look out for it. ;)

To end off this post, I'll show you a video of me taking a picture but realising it was a video. HAHAHA. Laugh at me~ Yeah I'm bloody blur.

wordy much.

2011-01-08T15:09:00.001+08:00

Hello! It's been a LOOOOOOOONG time and so this post is going to be pretty long! Be happeh! =D The last time I posted was......LAST YEAR! Hehe. Now now, when was the last time I posted? Oh that thing.

Well, I DID NOT watch the muvee at all, thou my family were planning to, on that Sunday. But yeah, I stayed at home. ^^

There was training the next day. Exhausting as always but fuun! ^.^ Lunch afterwards @ Pepper Lunch. Ohlala, nice at first buuut after awhile, *bleargh. Walked here there everywhere, talktalk. Sorry if I'm gonna blog like this for the next few days shit cause....I can't really rmb what I did! D=

Friendly with HKSS on Tuesday. (Y) Went to get my hair chopped and konglong's hair done afterwards. Wash my hair beh shiooook, I like! (Y) Cut my LOOOOOOONG hair, and there you go BAAAAAAAM I get my short hair back. =(

Went to town with Wenfang, Jiamin and YiLin on Wednesday for S.H.O.P.P.I.N.G. Hahas, I didn't really shop muched thou. Ate @ Sakae! :D Omgaaahh, nice. But after awhile, nehhhhh. Neo prints. Red boots. Clothes. Ate Frolicks. ^.^ Went to Iluma for kOi. (Y) Hehe, homed. Streamed my SBS Gayo Dejun at night, OMGAHHHH THE PERFORNMANCES WERE (Y)(Y) ! Enjoyed it like woolala~ Hehe. ^.^

Went to Marina Barrage with Jiamin & Yilin. Letterman raglan. Denim shorts. Red boots. Ooohlala. Picnic-ed there! Damn fun. Weeheehee. (Y) Sushi. Tons of chips and snacks. Mango Pudding. Soya Bean milk. Vitamin Water. Kite. (L) Hehe, sho much fuuun! Ate and the kite = fail hehex. Went to get Bugis for neos and then kOi. SHIOK (Y) . Went home. Watched my KBS Gayo Dejun at night! :D Omgahhhh, awesome! (Y) My oh my, this post has alot of (Y). Singing and dancing along with 2PM on screen is the best =D

Went to mummy's office New Year Partaye on Friday with lil sis. Homed, then went out again to get my hair done AGAIN hahax. Teh Tarik for dinner! :D Planned to watch the fireworks but I got tired, so decided to go home instead. Bought glowstixxx and a new bubble kit! (L) AND FUCK I SHOULD'VE JUST GACE COUNTDOWN A MISS, I MISSED MY MBC GAYO DEJUN! So I shall watch it online then~ SG's Countdown's Firework's were ze besssssst. Shouldn't have gave it a miss, but howell. New Year Message Spam. I got so tired I couldn't even finish watching the KBS Golden Disk Awards. T^T Hafta watch that online too! I knocked into a door too, must have been too tireeeeed~

Thought I would stay home on Saturday to chill and watch dramas& shows, but nehhhh. Went out to eat with my family at CCK. > Parkway Parade. Ohlala~ Got kOi around there, (Y) AND OMGAHHHH I SAW A SKATER BOY WEARING A GLAMOUR KILLS SHIRT!! GLAMOUR FUCKING KILLS!! HE DRESSED SO WELL! (Y) Hehe. Anywayzz, went to my cousin's chalet afterwards. BBQ here and there. > Mustaffa at night. Fuck yeahhhh a new perfume for me again. Must.stop.buying.perfumes.

I don't rmb what I did on the Sunday..........LOL. SRZLY MY MEMORY IS FAILING ON ME!! =(

Hahas. Met Jonathan+Hairi on Monday to get ehemehem. Hehe. Pressies~ And yayyyyyy! I got a new hoodie to my collection! :D Did my hw, then went to Teh Tarik for our dinner. > Grocery shopping at Sheng Shiong!

And then JENGJENGJENG! It's the start of school on Monday! I was so exhausted, cause like duh I didn't get a proper break AT ALL during the hols. So in the morning before I went to school Zack tole me to do somersaults so that I'd wake up and yessss I did! You should try it! =D Studying on the first day of school, hw after hw after hw. Urgh. Training after school, sho tiring. 7-11 then home~ Hehe. Enjoyed the call at night! (L) ^.^

Wednesday just got even worseee. Srzly. Ah, whtever. Netball tryouts after school then court game with netballers. Fucking exhausted plz.

And Thursday I brought tons of books wimme and my bag was fucking HEAVY. So glad all my books are under the table nao, ^^ Troubled at night. I struggled through the night, but someone helped me through. (L) Thankyou :D

Three goodmorning texts on Friday! What a good way to start the morning, (Y) Netball after school, fun yet tiring. Went to jaypee with Yilin! Hehe.

CCA Open House today! Woo~ Pretty fun. Except for the fact that we have to wear the GREYPINK jersey! =( I want to wear my favourite REEEED jersey! But it went well. So tired I tell you! Stayed in school for awhile, then went to jaypee to eat walk around and have a H2H talk with Ashiqin! (L) Long bus ride home alone, (Y) Okay, sorreh it's been so long. BUSSSSSSSYYYYY. And for the lack of photos, I lazy. :P See you the next time I update! I PROMISE TO TRY! :D

death scream.

2011-01-06T21:37:00.000+08:00

I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside.

"ame, you have us." =')

2010-12-26T15:22:00.000+08:00

Hello! :D Wellwell, I abandoned my blog for about....a week? Woah, =O I absolutely HATE to abandon it, but I think you know the reason why I did so. I'm too caught up with life, sorreh! :/ So.... 2E2's Chalet update first?

We were supposed to meet at 12.30. Met fana, walk here and there at jaypee. Until we realised we were late HAHAHA fail. Trained all the way down to Pasir Ris. Cute skater boy on board! ^.^ I have such a fetish for 'em, hehe.

Bussed to Downtown East. Went to the chalet to settle down our things, ooh yeaah. I took the bed, mehehe. XD So basically our chalet was a......DUMP. Like damn fucking messy HAHAHA. I always had difficulty finding my stuff. Everything was lying around. Decided to go to WWW with JiaHui, ChuanYing, XinHui, Cassandra, KayLee, Jonathan and Henry. Aweesomee! (Y) Absolutely enjoyed myself with 'em. =D Circle with 'em at the wave damn funny! X)

Returned to the chalet at about 6 plusplus for the BBQ. Helped out till I damn tired, hahas! x.x Cookcookcook.

Celebrated Henry daddy's birthday! Chocolate cake so nyummy. (Y) Talked. Played. Truth Or Dare. Fuck whtevr. _|_ Went in the room to chill with the rest. I love 'em, they're the best! (L) =)

They taught me hao to play cards. Wooyeahh. (Y) Sho much fun with 'em. Played then at midnight, we BUGERED DADDY! (Y)(Y) Damn fun. Hehehe. ^.^

We playedplayedplayed. They wanted to go out at 3 in the morn, so they nap for about 10 mins? Hahas. H2H talk. Woke 'em up. We walked to the park. Sat by the sea, the breeze=(Y). Darn cold I tell you. Walked back, sent Miss Teo off.

We got our breakfast at MacD, then brought it back to the Park to eat. LOVEEEEEE HOTCAKESSSSSSS (Y)(Y) The milo was refreshingingly HOT and nice, (Y) So nice talking with 'em and eating, =) Went back to the chalet, played cards again. Fell asleep for 10 mins, and BAAAAAAAM we woke up shower blabla and zoooom off home! Darn tired. Fell asleep in the train, all of us kept knocking into things. Hahas. I went home, took a nice nap.

OH OH! Look the glowstixx! ABSOFUCKINGLUTELY LOVE 'EM!

I spent my Tuesday at home, hehe. FUCKING TIRED BY THE PREVIOUS WEEK. T^T Dramas & Shows. I NEED NEW HEADPHONES! Cause I spoiled my previous two, ='( And nao I'm left with 1. D= NOOOOOOOO. Cheese Fries+Seedless Grapes+Caramel Milk Tea=(Y)(Y)

My Wednesday? At home too! It.felt.so.good.to.finally.get.a.break! I fixed my own breakfast, :) And cleaned the housie. Dramas & Shows. Oh oh! I cannot wait for Avril Lavinge's Comeback, WHAT THE HELL! (Y) Go google it, sho excited. =D And OH! My fucking rashes still refuse to go away, FUCKING UGLY AND IRRITATING.

Oh loooook it's Thursday! Went to school to get sis's books and stuffs. Am so dreading next year, T^T Home. Jaypee to shop for christmas gifts. I FINALLY GOT MYSELF A SMALL BEANIE BOO! Omgaaahhhhhhh, I absolutely ADORE them, they're so cute! <: Get meee more plzzzz, hehe. We went to eat at Haagen-Dazs! NYUMMY MAX. (Y)(Y) Buuut, I still prefer my Ben & Jerry's! <: Went out jogging with lil sis at night. Sho happeh I did my skipping and ran my 2.4 (=

Was supposed to go shopping with bestfriend on Friday buuuuuut my family plans came up and fuuuuck no, I had to postpone it next week. >=( AND WTF THE PLAN WAS CANCELLED SO I STAYED HOME AND WATCH SHOWS AND DRAMAS ALL DAY.

Okay whtever, on the brighter note, I got my christmas pressie! Which is Paul Frank's Lipsmackerzzz. *points up. OMGAHHH FUCK YEAHHH. Been wanting 'em, YAYYYYY! THEY'RE SO AMAZING AND MAGICALLLLLLL. Hehehe. Plus I got Christmas cookies, candies and lots of chocolates! =) So I bulk downloaded songs. And got myself into the Christmas mood by listening to the Chipmunks sing! =D Want a plane that loops the loop, me I want a hula hoop~

Went to Escape Theme Park yest with my cuz from overseas and family! =D 360 degrees of fun! Hehe, I couldn't get to ride all the rides thou, they were small kids, =( But it was fuuun playing with 'em. And OHOH! I got myself 3 Aeropostale hoodies, FUCK YEAHHHH. THE COLOURS AREEE SO BRIGHTT AND PRETTY!!!!!! OMGAHHH. I. AM. SO. IN. LOVEE. WITH. 'EM! I really want to show you, but I can't find it in the web, they don't have the colours anymore, =( SORREH. Then we went to town to see the DARN NICE Christmas lightsssss! (Y)(Y) I wanted to go shopping, but.fuck.the.crowd.man. Nehmind, will go soon! So we trained back down. Went to PM's MacD and got our dinner. I went home, and started arranging my clothes to the colours of the rainbow again! I LOVEEE doing that, (L) So, that concludes my lovely Christmas.

So today is Sunday~ Going out later to catch a muvee with my family, yay! Wondering what we're watching thou, hmm. It's already the last week of the hols! =( And I have yet to get my school supplies and stuff! OMGIATTTT. Plus the HW!! This week is gna be a hell busy week, schedule jam packeeeeed. Will try to update everyday! =D As for nao, anyeong~ RASHES PLEASE GO AWAY. PLEASE.

2010-12-22T17:32:00.000+08:00

It's not getting any easier. Someday I feel like I'm disappearing, you know? Kind of like how you forgot me...now it feels like everyone else is too. And I'm just here...constantly fading in and out of people's lives

back to destruction.

2010-12-20T14:19:00.000+08:00

*points up. Nao yknw whut I mean by embarassing quirky headband, that is it.

Anyways, Friday was a blast! (Y) I woke up lateeee. Prepared, Jiamin & Afiqa came over my housie first. Cooked and played for awhile! Scrambled eggs with cheese ftw! =) Went to the Centris for the BBQ. We were the first few, so helped out here and there. The fire didn't start well, =( It only started later. So we played Chubby Bunny! <: Sho fun. And, playing at the playground there is so...... (Y)(Y) I LOVE IT. It totally cheered me up, ahhhhh love playgrounds like this! =') We even got free cotton candy! Helped out cooking, HOTTTTTTTTTTTT! Cook cook cook eat eat eat nom nom nom. Enjoyable! (Y)

Saturday= (Y) ! Cleaned the housie the whole morning, T^T DARN TIRED. Butttttt, love hao it is nao! Went out in the afternoon with my family. Shopping. Sales after sales after sales. I spent pretty much quite alot? Night walk. Homeeee.

Okay so that concludes my damn boring post. Cause.....I'm SO SLEEPY PLZ. An update of the Chalet soon, once the pictures are uploaded. =) Right nao.... I'm just in no mood, neither am I in the proper state to update. Till the next update then.

2010-12-16T22:28:00.000+08:00

" Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow. "

embarassing quirky headband.

2010-12-16T21:33:00.001+08:00

Hiiiiiiiiiii! Today was mad awesome I tell you. My day started off good and ended off pretty good too I guess, =) Netball Day Camp was a BLASSTTTTTTTTTT! Met Jiamin konglong as usual in the morning, and I was lateeeeee. I forgot so many thingys! Even forgot to wrap the present omgiattttttt D= ! Hahas, but I drank chocolate milkkkkk! :3 Hehe.

We went to school, training blabla. Friendlies and I kept falling down on my own! OMGIATTTT SO CLUMSY. Hahas, everyone was laughing at me! X) My ankle hurts thou =( That is shad. OMGIATTTT I DON'T WANT TO GET INJURED PLZZ.

Our lunch was nyummy max! I couldn't concentrate on my foooooooood =( THAT IS SO SAD. Gift exchange & Lucky Draw, cute quirky headbands that pretty much embarassed me a WHOLE lot, with people I didn't want walking by. UGH.

Had our team bonding games and coaching workshop @ ISH, fun maxx. ^.^ Ended off the day with talks and off I went eating with AshiQin, YingYu and Jiamin Konglong! :D KFC =( HAHAHA. Today was aweshuuuuuuum (Y)

Was so happeh ^.^ minus some stuffs of course, I'm appreciative thou, that I'm able to bring myself to be happeh! =) Or I will always be the........yeah. Okay, so that's my day today. Wenfang is backkkkkkk! Wooo ^.^ And YiLin should be back already too! =') Yayyyy, I missed 'em so much.

Oh Oh! Yknw Jiamin bought awesomee chocolates from Taiwan! I can't wait to eat 'em, must be so delicious <: Netball BBQ tml, and I have still yet to decide what to wear! D= AND THEN THERE'S CHALET ON SUNDAY! D= OMGIATTTT PANIC ATTACK. Okay shuddup I better start ransacking my wadrobe! Okay enough for nao! See you lil muchkins around! =)

^.^

2010-12-15T20:28:00.000+08:00

Haiiiiiiiii! So today I SADLY cancelled my plans to go swimming with Zack and the rest, =( to go get my school books with daddy. Everyone was waking me up so early in the morning! >=( I need my SLEEEEEP! Got my books, spent the day at home with my dramas&shows. And of course! Sleeeeeeeep! Feels good to have some rest, been so exhausted. Okay so that's not the point of my post~ No waittttt! Yknw, today I found out someone stole my FAVOURITEEEEE KitKat in the fridge! D= Oh Nooooooo! Nao there's no more, *sobs. Buuuuut, at least there were still seedless grapes in the fridge! ='D Y^____^Y I'm even munching on them nao while blogging! =)

Okaaaay, that's not the point! Buuuuut, I'm excited for tml! BECAUSE THERE'S NETBALL DAY CAMP! =D And, I get to........

★ Wear my favourite RED jersey!

★ Wear my favourite sports bra!

★ Wear my new FBT! Weeheehee.

★ Wear my favourite undie B)

★ Meet Jiamin Konglong! And AshiQin! And YingYu! :D

★ Be with NETBALLERS and have a whole day of fun with 'em (L) !

★ Wear my kitty ears! <:

Okay, I think that's enough to sum up my excitedness~

Am meeting Jiamin Konglong (L) as usual earleh in the morning! Sho happeh, she's back le! Can't wait to see her in the morning! =D I'll blog about it tml! Wait for my post, =) Right nao I'm waiting for my 9PM show, heehee ^.^ Must see the damn shuai Dai Yang Tian! Ahhhh, love that show! ='D And OH! There's a 2E2 Chalet this Sunday, SO DAMN EXCITED. Buuuuuut, I've got no clothes to wear. So I must go do some shopping before I go!!!! Shorts would be good (Y) ! Okay, show's starting in about.....8 mins time! Enjoy your life cupcakes <:

meow <:

2010-12-14T21:45:00.000+08:00

*waves madly. I'm so excited right nao cause I'm wearing my kitty ears! Heehee, makes me so happeh. ^.^ So.......I forgot what I did! =( HAHAHA. My STM is really returning! D= OH NO! Okay.......I'm trying to remember what I did last Wednesday. I was sick and bedridden, so I spent my day watching dramas and so on, just me and ma lappeh! And oh! I ate seedless grapes, ahhhhhhh my favourite! ='D Love 'em! Popped some pills and knocked out!

Thursday training! Mega sick, I vomitted so much during training x.x I FELT SO FUCKING USELESS. I couldn't train, felt so helpless =( Omgiatt, hate that dizzy want to faint vomit shit feeling! BanQuet afterwards for lunchie, =) My Friday was sad =( No, really! I couldn't get to see Zack, bedridden the whole day. Just a day with me and ma lappeh! And I really wanted to meet him! >=( Watched Music Bank in the evening to cheer myself up, and he came back so late at night!

My weekends were the best, spent with my family (Y) I spent so much! $.$ Went to Lot1 with mummy and lil sissy to watch Rapunzel: A Tangled Tale! Ahhhhhh, love that show! ='D

And, I want people to release PUREEEDY lanterns on my birthday for me too! ^^

And this is Pascal! Isn't he so adorable?

We even ate Pizza Hut, so nyummy! :3 Sunday=SHOPPING. @ Expo > Ikea > IMM > Jaypee ? If I remember correctly, yeahhhh! We were looking around for my DSLR too, I am such a happeh girl! ='D Oh in case you're wondering what I've been wanting, it's the awesome magical Nikon D90! Heehee. Imma get fisheye lens too! =D Ahhhhh, so awestruck. *stares at D90.

Friendly with Anderson's on Monday, yesterday! I didn't play, HAHAHA, sickness overload. =( Went to jaypee with maknae and jiejie to get our lunchie at BanQuet. Then, I went roaming around jaypee aimlessly with maknae, just like hao we used to! Ahhhh, love these times~ ='D I even bought gummies! They make me so happeh ^.^

Today's training was really tiring! T^T But I had so much fun! Especially the bowling pin thingy! GP after training with YingYu and AshiQin. Got our foodie and bubbletea, then zoooooom off we went to AshiQin's housie! Ahhhh, I had such a blast there! ='D Gossips, the awesome aircon, Spongebob, the comfy sofa, the spoilt hairdryer, instant noodles, laughing, EVERYTHING!

We washed our hair like hao it was in the salon, so much fun! ='D

AshiQin even washed my hair for me, and omgiattttt, I am such a happeh girl! She used the amaaaazing shampooo and bam! My dandruffs were gone! I feel like such a loser for shampoo-ing my hair everyday in the past, just cause, well I'm a clean freak! D= So.....thankyou AshiQin, ame is a happeh girl and she loves you! (L) My scalp and hair feels so goooood! ^^

My face was like this when AshiQin pulled hair while washing my hair for me! HAHA.

Then I washed YingYu's hair too! We did it like hao it was in the salon, so much fun! ='D Ahhhh, I love today! (L) Back to GP, AshiQin blanja-ed me a chocolate waffle! OMGIATTTT I'm so happeh, I was happily muching away on it! ^^ Home, showered, and teeveeee! My usual 9PM show! LOVE THAT SHOWWWWW! Ahhhh, I want to see a meteor too! =D Oh! I'm finished with my update! Wow! OMGIATTT I just realised that this post of mine has TOO MANY !EXCLAMATION MARKS! and UNECASSARY PICTURES~

i nak teddy bear <:

2010-12-14T15:18:00.000+08:00

Hellu, ^^ Hexhex. Am at AshiQin's housie right nao, I had instant noodles just nao, nyummy max~ Will blog later on, hopefully, when I'm home! =D Yknw AshiQin has a really cuuuute teddy bear which I WANT SO BADLY =( That explains why there's a teddy picture, and OH OH! It looks liddat too! Someone plz get me a teddy! D= Cute maximum. Okay, whtever, wait for my boring update later on! ^^

Happeh Birthday Hairi! ^.^

2010-12-10T12:10:00.000+08:00

I miss Zaaaaaaaaaaaack! But hey! He's coming back today, yipeeeee! And I'm sick, =( I was just planning to go fetch him at the airport! >=( Oh Oh! Today's Hairi's birthday too! Happeh Birthday Hairi! :D I'm looking foward to the return of both of you! Hurry~ I'll make my best effort to drag myself out to meet the both of you! =D

imma be.

2010-12-07T20:41:00.000+08:00

Anyeong everyone :D ! I'm sorreh for being away from yellowzebras for some time. *blows dust off. I guess you know why, B.U.S.Y. I'm not in the best happeh condition to update right nao, but I can't bear leaving this lovely page of mine cause well......it's where I rant freely. And my feelings overflow. Okay, stop it ame. Shuddup srzly. So....I'm really sick right nao, I have no idea why either, but I ABSOFUCKINGLUTELY HATE it. Cause I'm so sick, I just want to cry. Yeah, yknw, that kinda of feeling, it sucks D= Okay, I keep getting sidetracked trying to do a mundane busy update. So......where did I stopped, oh yeah~ FRIDAY!

So....what did I do.... OH YA! FRIDAY AND SATURDAY HAS BEEN AMAZING AWESOME MAGICAL for me! =D So on Friday....I went out bright and earleh in the morning to meet Nadia, we wanted to go to Changi Airport to well...see the KPOP stars! But oh well, I got lazy an decided to go to IMM instead, CAUSE THERE WAS A 2PM FANMEET. So we went there and fuhhhh sweeswee got the first 150! Omgiaaaaaat, I was so stoked! =D #132 and #133! So then we were supposed to have 2 thangs for entry, the album and of course, the MNET ticket! So fuck no, I DID NOT have both. Buuuuuut, Nadia and Saberryna went looking all over for the album, since most was sold out! =( But omgiattt, they put so much effort into it and even called every Popular outlet! And they finalleh got the album! YAY! I was so happeh, no seriously! Then..the tix. I asked mummy, and she bought 'em for me! Love her so much! (L) Hehe, so bought ma tix, collected 'em. And we sat in the queue suntanning! Hahaz, it was like sweltering hot, and fuck the way i dressed was so not to the weather! Okay, skip that.

I had fun chatting and laughing with Nadia, Saberryna and Zira! Hexhex. We finally managed to get in, and fuck yeah, we were the first 150! Took pretty polaroids! So sadly, we got only one signature from one member, which we didn't even get to choose okay! And hor, they didn't sign the album, but instead a poster idk who provided! But that's sokay, I'm thankful to be able to see 2PM! ='D

I was shoved by the security guard to JunHo, AND OMGIATTTT I WAS SO STARSTRUCKED! I was so happy the poster was facing me instead of him, PAISEHHHH GILAAAAAAA LA. But he was so cute, he laughed then turned the poster around and asked for my name! OMGIATTT SO CUTE I WANT TO DIEEEEEEE. Mehehehe. XD I said myname, but sadly he didn't hear it, so he asked for it again and told me to come closer. Woo, so I said and spelled my name to his ear! Oh his skin is so soft I tell you! When his skin brushed against mine, OMGIATTTTTTT!! So he signed the poster, "to ame" Hehehehe, I was so happeh! ='D We shook hands~ AHHHHHHH. Hehehe. Then, next to JunHo was WooYoung!!!!!!! OMGIATTT I WAS SO HAPPEH I THOUGHT I COULD GET HIS SIGNATURE TOO, BUT NOOOOO, THE SECURITY JUST PUSHED ME! =( So I just waved and smiled at him, ahhhhhhh why you smile so cute????!!!!

Then I walked and smiled at the other members, SO CUUUUTE AND HANDSOME AND OMGIATTT JUST SO AMAZING! Then they sang a little, and everything ended! D= Shad. WE COULDNT STOP SPAZZING AFTER THE WHOLE THING! (Y) We were so excited for Saturday! CAUSEE IT'S FUCKING MULA!

JENG JENG JENG! Woke up earleh so Saturday, to get the blue/yellow tags. So we went around 5 plus, and Zira was late! We were worried sick. So anyway, we went down to MBS first, and the queue is like, no wait the crowd was insane. Crazy stuff, I was sweating so much. I literally got carried away instead of moving okay whtever, human stampede. HAHAHA. So glad I'm safe! =) We didn't get the tags but we were still the first few so we got this chop. Then, we went home, I got home and changed cause yeah, I was so sweaty. Met and then we cabbed down to MBS, and the crowd, aishhh. So we spent our time there, picnic-ing and everything! So much fun!

We finally moved to the hall, OMGIATTTT I WAS SO FUCKING EXCITED LIKE NO TML! They played the MVs first. Then, the performances began!!!!! ='D MBLAQ > MISS A > 2AM > BEAST > 2PM ! Omgiattttt, 2PM's performances was DAEBAKKKKK. No wait, the whole night, and the two days was DAEBAKKKKKK! Ahhhh, all so handsome and cute and amazing and awesome! Performed, jumped, screamed my lungs out, OMGIATTTTT. IT WAS TOTAL MADNESS AND AHHH JUST SO AMAZING! I was in 2PM's video ='D After everything ended, my legs hurt and I was so happeh, I wanted to cry! ='D We ate at 7-11, then trained back. Everyone was so tired, we were all like falling asleep while standing up. TIREDDD MAXIMUMMMM. So mummy was so nice to come and fetch me from the MRT Station, thankyouuuu! (L) We reached home at around 12, and I knocked out. HAHAHAZ. Ahhhh, the night was so amazing magical and awesome. Fuck yeah. (Y) So...I need to get my poster laminated! And thankyou Nadia for getting me the album, imma happeh girl indeed~ =D I'll never forget all these memorable moments! Dancing and singing together everything!

Sunday was spent swimming with mummy and my sister! And eating KFC =( HAHAHA. There was netball yest, on Monday! Friendlies at YCKSS. Won them, yay! Back to school, OMGIATTT I WAS SO HAPPEH BEFORE AND AFTER THE MATCH! You know why, hehe ;) Trained down to Clementi with Jiamina, YiLin and ShiMin to get our kOi! =D Ahhhhh, heaven! ^.^ And to make things better, the queue and wait was short! So yay! Trained back, and I slept at home HAHAHA exhausted. Mask mask mask PYD when I woke up. Happppehhhhh!

Met Jiamin konglong as usual, earleh in the morning. And since I wasn't much in a mood, I got my usual breakfast combo to cheer me up a little. Training was usual, tiring but fun. Lunch @ BanQuet with Afiqa, Jiamin and YiLin. Afiqa jiejie beh nice blanja us drinks! ^^ Walked around, then home. I SLEPT HAHAHA. Woke up cleaned the housie! So proud of myself, I should really go back to my usual routine of cleaning the house regularly. Yayyyyy! Clean housie ftw. (Y) And idky but really I am just so sick right nao, thank god my sister was nice to make me Campbell's Soup. Ahhh, feels good and warm. <: So, yknw I don't watch much teevee, no wait, infact I don't watch teevee at all! But I have been getting the habit of watching alr, which I did mention I must, HAHAHA, yayyyyy! The Ch 8's 9PM show is so interesting. "Chocolate, chocolate, chocolate." So cute, hahas. The actors all (Y)(Y) I like! Okay, I really need a rest, god knows hao sick I am and I'm still happily typing away here. What a busy life I have, must be appreciative. So anyeong~ See you animal friends around! <':

mixed emotions.

2010-12-02T20:55:00.001+08:00

So I spent my day at home yesterday! Yay! FINALLY~ A DAMN SHORT BREAK. 24hours. So I got up earleh, cleaned the housie like no tml, AND AS USUAL IT GOT DIRTIED THE NEXT DAY UGH. Then, continued with my dramas, and yesssssss finalleh, PYD! =D OH! In case you're wondering what's that, it's PAMPER YOURSELF DAY~ Heehee. ^.^ So yeah, masks and everythang. I like i like! Then, there was training today. Met Jiamin KongLong in the morning at 6.15. I ate my usual breakfast combo! A great way to start my morning! =D Mehehe. XD Then we headed to school to train earleh, then as usual it was so dark we decided to wait for the rest. THEN WE LAZY THEN YEAH, NEH TRAIN HAHAHA. But I love coming earleh with KongLong! :D Training was okay as always. Then a like little briefing? After everything, school team announced. *sigh. So disappointed. Anyways, had my MELTZZZZ lunch at KFC with the juniors, YiLin and Jiamin! Sho fun =) Imma rubbish bin! :3 YingYu, Jiamin, AshiQin and me went walking around then to my house~ (psssssst, they force de XP) HAHAHA. So yeah, we talked and shared and watched teevee and played lappy. Fun! =) Sent them off. We went to MacD frst. And then hor, when I was thre. I GOT SO CHA MEH? SO DARK MEH? =( HAHA. Something happened, won't say what! :P Then went them and headed home. So nao, imma go clean kepo's cage cause she STINKS!! URGH. WHY DO YOU POOP SO MUCH? >=( Hahaz, then needa head to bed earleh tonight cause I'm going out tml. As usual, B.U.S.Y. life. Okay tata~ Na here's my update for ya YingYu and AshiQin! =D Heehee, can't wait to hang out with y'all again. ^.^

indestructible for now.

2010-11-29T21:22:00.000+08:00

Exactly ame. I've got to put my heart and everything away for the time being, and F.O.C.U.S on netball. All this time, all I got was scoldings and bad impressions. WTF happened to me and netball? I don't care if I'm exhausted that's not gonna get in my way anymore, cause no one knows how much I want this. To be better than I was before. To improve. To prove. You're not gonna bring me down, NOTHING'S gonna bring me down. I'll strive hard till I reach my goal. School team. Bonded team. Better player. Go go go. So scold and punish me for all I care, I'll wipe my fucking tears away and endure. For nao, I'm back. The time being. Hwaiting! And juniors, don't let anyone bring you all down, you guys are the best, love you all ^.^ Jiayou juniors! And I'll see y'all tml~ =D

exhausted.

2010-11-29T20:54:00.001+08:00

My thumbdrive isn't back wimme yet =( But that's sokay, my bby will be back wimme soon~ ! K3k3k3. So on Friday, I WATCHED HARRY POTTER RIGHT HEHEHE. Okay enough, I went out at night again to have dinner with zack ^.^ SRC Challenge on Saturday~ I wore my favourite EVERYTHING, JERSEY, FBT, SPORTS BRA. AND I FUCKING FELL INTO THE FUCKING MUDDY GRASS $%%^&% URGH. Okay, playing there was kinda okay. Planned to eat Swensens after that but yeah, ended up at MacD! =( Okay so guilty again. Sho tired ma gawddddd. My Sunday was spent happily at home. Watching and catching up on some shows. BUT I DIDNT GET TO DO PYD T^T Watched MAMA. ^.^ Mummy was sho nice she bought me a DKNY perfume hehe and a Nike jacket and shirt. Yayyyyy~ And I had MacD for dinner again! >=( Today's Monday already! Friendly with St. Nicholas if I'm not wrong? WE WENT TO THE WRONG SCH AT FRST OMGIATTT SO PS! XD Hahaz. Anyways, the game was ............. Yeah. Disappointed in myself. Okay so stayed in school awhile with the shooters then off I went home DRENCHED. =( Went out to meet zack and we went to town~ then jaypee, to shop for him la this boy ahh~ I ate KFC. And ICE CREAM! And SUSHI! An amazing day I had with him indeed. (L) So sad he has to leave for HK soon. COME BACK FAST ALRIGHT =D There goes my holidays, flying past day by day, FOREVER BUSY AISH. There's training tml, jiayou everyone! Imma head to bed early tonight, am so exhausted. PYD I'm lookin foward to ya! ;) REST REST REST BREAK I NEED A BREAK

why does it always rain on me?

2010-11-27T22:08:00.000+08:00

my sorry eyes can see.

2010-11-27T20:53:00.000+08:00

"I put my faith in you, so much faith. And then you just threw it away. "

HARRY POTTER! (L)

2010-11-26T17:15:00.001+08:00

Hello :D Sorreh I've no pictures to put up, not that I don't, BUT MY AWESOME THUMBDRIVE IS WITH MAKNAE AND EVERYTHING IS IN THERE SHE BETTER NOT BROWSE THRU =( Okay so moving on, I spent my day on Wednesday at home! So suprisingly, I got up pree early, sucha happeh girl I did so! Good job~ (Y)(Y) Then, I spent the whole day in front of the lappy bulk downloading and doing whtever I was doing hahaz. Training on Thursday. Tiring but fun as always! =D Went to school early to train, budden had to help the shooters with their statistics so nehmind. :) Went to KFC after training to nomnomnom. So guilty! =( EH EH, the seniors went to drink kOi, so jealous~ =( Okay, so we ate with some juniors and then walked around. Talked alot, enjoyable day. =)

So today, I went to watch Harry Potter! OMGIAT I WAS SHO EXCITED I TELL YOU! Always been a huge fan of Harry Potter ^.^ Hehe. So the movie was awesome, but I hate the hanging ending. =( Urgh, nao I can't wait for Part 2. I watched HP with fiqa jiejie. After that, we headed to town since she wanted to her shoezzzz. Heh. Got 'em, and we headed back to jaypee for me to eat KFC. GUILTY =( Walked here and there, and jiejie bought me yellow socks! Yayyyy sho happeh ^.^ Thankyou~ We went home afterwards, a day spent well indeed. (Y) Oh! There's a carnival tml, JIAYOU ERRBODI! =D Hehe. Okay, done for nao. Watch for updates ;) Oh btw, everyone must wish Jiamin konglong okays. ^.^ Once again,

HAPPEH BIRTHDAY JIAMIN, KONG LONG #3 ! ^.^

i'll be back.

2010-11-25T16:09:00.000+08:00

Plaster that smile up. Forget everything else for now, as I concentrate on NETBALL. School team, I'm coming at ya. ;) Imma work hard. Improve. Improve. Improve. Go go ame~ At the same time, not forgetting my problems. *sigh. I wish they'll all go away. I want to be back to me. =) ame HWAITING!

my happiness? gone.

2010-11-25T15:45:00.000+08:00

" When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun. Then, you grow up and learn to be catious. You could break a bone or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don't leap at all because there's not always someone to catch you. And in life, there's no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary? "

- Sex And The City

stop procrastination.

2010-11-24T10:48:00.000+08:00

▲ Download my bulkload amount of songs

▲ GET WELL! MUST. Else I'll die not being able to do the things I love.

▲ Update my dear bloggeh always. ^.^

▲ Watch my bulkload amount of dramas and shows

▲ CLEAN MA ROOM OMGIATTT.

▲ Catch up with Annoying Orange! Missed you buddy ='D

▲ Read my ALLKPOP! Omg it's been ages I srzly need to catch up!

▲Watch the awesome videos on youtube~ fuck yeah. =D

▲ Get more SLEEP! I need it srzly.

▲ STOP the JUNK FOOD FAST FOOD CARBONATED DRINKS diet. HAHAHA must go back to milk yoghurt rice diet! ^.^

▲ EXERCISE LIKE I ALWAYS DID. Need to be a twig HAHAHA (Y)(Y) Go go go stretching also! Go go exercise routine be flexible tall slim go go go!

▲ Get rid of the disgusting two packs. =( plz go away I've been trying to get rid of you.

▲ PRINTPRINTPRINT LYRICS+PHOTOS!

▲ Start on holiday homeworks like finally HAHAHA fail.

▲ Save $$$ I.NEED.RETAIL.THERAPY.FUCK.

▲ Sell my stuffs/clothes/whatever away.

▲ Follow thru my awesuum holiday plan. (Y)(Y)

▲ Watch more teevee! =D

▲ Make it a habit to charge my phone everyday! Since it's always die-ing hehe.

▲Organize the damn messy folders everywhre lappy thumbdrive blablabla so messy my giattt. >=(

▲ I miss the carefree indestructible ame.

▲ Where did you go? =(

▲ Chase your dreams ame and fuck the rest.

a.non.detailed.update.sorreh.

2010-11-22T21:35:00.000+08:00

I.AM.SO.SICK.PLUS.TIRED.BUT.I.WILL.UPDATE.AND.NOT.LEAVE.MA.BLOG.TO.ROT. =D

Since some of the photos are already up, lemme do ma Cambodia update first.

Met some of the usual clique last Wednesday before I went flying off to Cambodia. We went to Wild Wild Wet! Rides after rides after rides, oh the thrill ^^ Love it max. We headed to eat Popeyes after that, nyummy. Then I went to fetch this hal-muh-neeh who was late~ So whtever, met #42 frst, walked herethereherethere with him. Sho fun, heehee. Happyhappy girl. ^.^ So then amalina came, and then went to ma housie. She repacked her stuffies, we used the lappy, I fell asleep MUAHAHA cause I was sho tired so plan nak stay awake fail. So then we got up and siapsiap all that to leave.

I was so excited to put on ma shoes idk why HAHAHA. They make me happeh! ^.^

So yeah, blablabla we pulled our luggages to school at like whut? 2 plus-ish in the morning. So wtf i wanted to sleep so bad, but yeah, there was a spark of excitement in me so I couldnt. HAHAHAH wtf. Maknae so late can?! We boarded the bus, photo spam! HAHAH camwhore shit. Photos after photos after photos. Then hal-muh-neeh aka MOMMY did ma hair and hers. Pretty ^.^ So the bus was really jerky and all and we fell over at this one point of time cause i lost smth HAHAAHAHA so funny and then she had to re-braid my hair. Couldn't stop laughing. (Y) We lugged our luggages and got off at Changi, then mummy+daddy got us Burger King! SO NYUMMY! <: We got maknae's money changed and i on nom nom-ed all the way ^.^

Okay so yeah, blablabla, we got onto the SQUEEZY airplane. And I felt so excited for the takeoff! Heehee, kate first time naik plane. So the take off was fuun~ =D omg my ears hurt like #$#@$ then I couldnt wait to get off the plane. Oh ya! I got the window seat, so I practically wow-ed at everything~ Hexhex. The clouds were fluffy like cotton candy~ so i ate hal-muh-neeh's awesome sandwich and chocolates and then slept like a pig. HAHAHA. Arrived then someone took my luggage wrongly! >=( Okay whtever ame.

We bussed to the hotel, and had our nyummy breakfast there. ^.^ Nyam nyam nyam. We got our rooms (YAY!) and I ran running to my room so excited and JENGJENGJENG it's niceee. Okay la my room problem herethere abit can. No wait, ALOT. Switched partners, and hal-muh-neeh came over~ Hexhex. Camwhore shit.

HAHAHAHA FAIL AT BEING A JAPANESE. >.<

We then went for our lunch at an Indian restaurant. And I felt like sleeping, my eyelids were like 10KG!!!! I struggled so hard to stay awake.

We went to the orphanage and yeah, short meeting. Adorable kids. =D We then went back to buy more thingys at Lucky Mall? Yeah if I'm not wrong. I ate ICE-CREAM! OMG THE OREO AND CARAMEL IS LIKE HEAVEN~~ Heehee. ^.^ We had dinner at a nyummy Muslim retaurant! Love the food~ We headed back to the hotel, since my room had problemzxzx we went to nina's and maknae's room~ Mianhe. =<

So it's the SECOND day~ We went to the orphanage again. Painted, interacted, played~ Sho fun =D Well done to the painters, they did a beautiful job! ^.^ It's so pretty~ I got used to the puppies and dogs there, so yeah, I had a hell lot of fun. Waaaay better than the first day. So sad to bid goodbye. =( But yeah. We had our dinner then headed back to the hotel to wash up~ TIME FOR NIGHT SHOPPING FUCK YEAH.

So yeah, I ABSOLUTELY did not regret going shopping with cikgu cause she was an awesuum bargainer! Hehe. ^.^ I bought stuffs. Cikgu bought for us bracelets smmre! =D Satisfied with my buys, we headed to the hotel, back to our rooms! I ate ma instant noodles happily while watching wrestling. ^.^ I put a masque and lied down on my bed, and they left me alone watching wrestling again =( So I had to sleep alone again. HAHAHA FAIL.

Third day! VISITING! So tiring gawd. T^T Lazy la wan explain. THE STEEP STEPS WERE AWESUUUM but scary a little. HAHAHA. Oh the thrill! ^.^ I climbed the SUPER FUCKING STEEP STAIRS WITH AFIQA I SWEAR I FELT LIKE FALLING. SEEE!!

Picture stolen from google hehe. ^.^

But anywaysssss, LOOK AT IT!!! They built like new wooden steps and LUCKILY IT HAD HANDRAILS TO HOLD ON TO! The experience was awesome! And when you are going down from the top, OMG THE VIEW. I was so scared like #$^$ but it was so fun! ^.^ Thrill~ Those who didn't go up really, you're at loss. :P We went back to the hotel, then proceeded to have our dinner.

KFC for dinner ley! Shiok, I like. (Y) Got giant hotdog bun and jelly ice-cream (which was not nice) AND AWESUUM CHICKEN! Hehe. We went back to the hotel and went nuts? Fana la. SIAO LIKE WHUT. HAHAHAH BFRE WE LEFT FOR DINNER ALSO. (Y)(Y)

SEE MAKNAE'S TOINKTOINK AMALINA DO SO PRO. OUT HAIR STYLIST MAH! ^.^

So at night was like. Okay don't talk about it. I'm grateful I had awesome juniors wimme. ;) Woke up for breakfast, LIKE DAMN SLEEPY CAN. My face= (Y)(Y)

Okay so headed to the airport blablabla! And oh! I really like the weather there at the airport, it was really breezy! ^.^ Hexhex.

I was really sleepy so I slept like most of my way there? HAHAHA. Woke up and we were landing soon, felt so happeh to be in Singapore! =D OH OH! My ears hurt like a bitch when I was cming back I ended up crying and whining in the plane. $%^$% serious shit pain. Urgh. I became like whut, more pekak please. HAHAHA FAIL. Went back to school, sucha long journey back~ Lugged my luggaged alone in the drizzle, (aww so sad HAHA) then suddenly someone I didn't realise who was chasing after me tapped my shoulder. SO CUTE <: #42 ! So happeh I got to see him after like 4 days? Happeh girl! ^.^ Yeah, that sums up my Cambodia trip! Oh I have to include I did alot of punishments too. =( Like wth right srsly, and they're all so crappy plz. Whtevr.

Training the next day on Monday when I was back! So tired at training I tell you. HAHAHA, but fuuun as always. <: CIP thingys afterwards with the netballers. Packpackplanplan. Head wan baozha le! Went to jaypee to get some other stuffies for CIP.

Friendly the next day with Dunearn. Yeah, went to drink PEACH BUBBLETEA afterwards! Nyam nyam nyam <: Heehee. Went home, prepared then met YiLin and Jiamin to get their hair chopped. We went to meet WenFang afterwards at the MRT to train down to Bugis~ She late ley! HAHAHA. Shop for their thingys, I got so hungry and moody since I didn't eat for the whole day. Wanted to queue for kOi budden looking at the queue and my mood, straightaway dowan. HAHAHA. Had our dinner at MacD then trained back home. Superb fun with 'em in the train. Jokes after jokes after jokes~ =D Enjoyed my day with 'em.

Hari Raya Haji the next day! I spent my day packing for KL since I'm leaving the next day. Went to my cuzzie's housie to eat then accompany my sissy get her graduation dress. From Far East > Bugis > Home. Long bus rides. Mr Bean's soy bean+chocolate pancake. Nyummy!

So on Thursday, I left for KL early in the morning after lugging heavy stuffies to the bus. HAHAHA. So we rode check passport blablabla reached Malaysia. Long coach ride. Stops here and there for toilet breaks and eating =D Had our lunch then we then headed to the orphanage. SO STRESS LA I WAN BAOZHA ALR! HAHA. Played around, everything turned out alright I guess?

Finished then we bussed and drove through some places to take photos. Sight see-ing~ ^.^ Had our dinner then went back to the hotel to wash up and we had our team bonding session at the room! Hehe, sho fun! =D Games and games. Back to the hotel and then zzzZzzzz.

Woke up the next day and had training first thing in the morning. Had our buffet breakfast at the hotel. And I felt so damn full I like couldn't run?! HAHAHA FAIL. We had our training at Bukit Jalil.So went to have our lunch at a restaurant after training then proceeded back to the hotel to rest. I slept so comfortably and was so upset I had to get up =( Friendly after our rest at Bukit Jalil again~

Omgiatttt look at the difference in height between me and the Malaysian National player! =( Okay whtevr, I MUST grow taller I WILL I SHALL I MUST! Drink milk jump! GO ame! ^.^

So interviewed them after the friendly! Ate banana! xD Nyam nyam nyam. We had our dinner, then proceeded back to the hotel for team bonding games and reflection again. :)

Changed room and slept with Khairin & Laylah. Woke up the next morning to training again~ T^T Lunch after training then we went back to the hotel to rest. Went to a school for another friendly in the afternoon. The school beh nice ley give us souvenior after we played with 'em! =D And also had refreshments for us! Nyummy~ ^.^ Oh ya! When I was on my way to get the refreshments right horrrrr, I saw this kitty. Then guess whut happened.

Ame: Ey kitty! So cuuuuuute! ^.^

Kitty: (Runs to tree and sit and stare at me)

Ame: Meow!

Kitty: Meoooooooooooow. (SO LONG AND BABY KITTY VOICE SO CUTE I TELL YOU)

Ame: ^^ Meow~

Kitty: Meoooooooooooooooooow.

Ame: HAHAHA, everyone see the kitty so cute de!!! (calls airbadi)

Kitty: Meooooow.

Ame: Meow~

Kitty: Meooooooooooow.

Ame: Okay bye kitty~

Kitty: (Sticks tongue out. MERONG~ ) HAHAHA so cute when it sticked it's tongue out at me. ^.^ Love kitties.

Okay stop it about the kitty already, I'm like so bored of it. So we changed into fresh clothes and AFIQA screamed at the toilet! HAHA. Okay, ignore that. Ummm, headed to Berjaya Times Square for shopping~ Sad lerrrr. I didn't shop at all. Bought all the thingys for my family =( But nahhhh, that's okay, hope they're happeh with what I bought 'em! =D Headed back to the hotel and I moved out to bunk it together with the Sec Twos. Chaos. Things happened. A halfway H2H talk with the Sec Twos. I guess we were all just too tired to continue. 7 people sleeping in one room, a chaotic night indeed. Cries. Shouts. Anger. Sadness. All this will be resolved, soon I hope. Okay, stop this talk ame. Yeah, so the next day we ate our buffet breakfast at the hotel~ Had our friendly which was cancelled so no friendly. We watched other schools played and then played among ourselves. Fun indeed. :)

We headed back to the hotel afterwards to shower up and pack our stuffies to return home! Hehe. Then we left with our luggage and all, had our lunch at a restaurant and gogogo long coach journey ride home! =D Stopped by a few places to snap some pictures!

Lugged my luggage alone (AGAIN) all the way home and there was no one at home. =( So I waited outside for about 1 hour till my mummy came. She bought me a box of Chewy Juniors! So I wasn't so upset anymore~ =D Hexhex. Went home, ate my Chewy Juniors medicine and crashed on bed. Couldn't take it alr, so tired. EXHAUSTED. T^T So I woke up on Monday at about whut? 2? HAHAHAH SLEEP LIKE PIG. (Y)(Y) Woke up and there was no one at home. =( So I used the comp all day and slack and sleep and use and update bloggeh halfway hahahaha. So yeahhh, slack day.

Training today! Super tiring~ I got so tired at everything. >: Thanks ah Jonathan for the Stickys! ^.^ Went to 7-11 to nomnomnom. I wanted to drink milk!!! >=( and I so regretted not doing so. Instead, I ate INSTANT NOODLES and drank CARBONATED DRINKS. BAD GIRL!! Okay, must stick to my usual habit and not eat stupeed snacks~ Go ame go =D Pei-ed Shimin with YiLin and Jiamin to send *coughs smething. HAHA. Then we slacked and played at the playground! Sho fun, I love playgrounds~ But the monkey bars gave me blisters. T^T So painful I tell you. Okay then Afiqah came, and we had a H2H talk. (L) Heehee. Headed to my house since Jiamin had to pee~ Hehe. Talked ate chat over thre. Sho fun ^-^ So, that sums up my last week till today blog update! Sorry it's not detailed, I'm really tired. Hahaz, mianhe~ >: Umm, I might be leaving again. Next week most prolly? Yeah, omgiaaat I hate to travel suddenly. Okay, I'm too tired alr. Happy reading this long update for nao! Better ones coming~ ^.^

go strong front go.

2010-11-17T20:55:00.000+08:00

I thought this was what I wanted. I thought fixing things would make everything okay. But to be honest I'm worse off now than I've ever been before.

I'm not updating today, so sorry. Been so busy, just came back from Cambodia and I'm leaving for KL tml. So yeah, hopefully an update for y'all as soon as I'm back. ^^ Heehee, take care you lovely muffins! See y'all around. <:

strong front.

2010-11-09T21:08:00.000+08:00

Hi~ so this is maknae's impersonation of her bag. Y LOOK LIKE FACE SIA?! Okay, cuute. So, yeah, everyone, this is maknae's bag that she was trying to describe to me. Hexhex. ^-^

Moving along. Fuck all that bullshit. Push that away for nao. I've been busy, that's for sure. Soooo, it's already a Tuesday. Can't believe it, but I'm already leaving, i like 1 day time? Yeah, so my last Sunday was spent idling at home. Well, I spent like almost the whole day sleeping! Cause I was so exhausted throughout the week. I prolly should that every weekend. :) Huehue. So yeah, I got up at around 12~ Hehe. Then ate cleaned bla. Fell back to sleep. Heehee.

Yesterday was Monday. There was supposed to be a friendly, but hell it was cancelled. So we had training at the stadium. Kinda killer, but fun! Heh. Trainings are fun. (Y) Went back to school afterwards to get our class. OMG THE SHOCK SERIOUSLY WTF. Nao I'm more disappointed than ever. Shit sorry no emo kitty. Um, yeah. Wenfang's housie afterwards. Just like the good old days. :) Slackslackeateatnomnom. Home! There was training today, but sadly, I couldn't attend cause CIP fucking dragged and wasted my time so yeah. Sorry airbadi. =( Um, so we went to maknae's housie. Maknae's clothsie! Heehee, free clothes. (Y) Went out for Cambodia shopping with hal-muh-neeh+maknae. (L) CityHall > Central > IMM > Jaypee. Tired~ Finally gotten all my stuffs alr! Gonna pack my ass of tonight and finish it =D Hmmm, tml's the last day before I leave and come back and leave and come back. Have yet to meet the usual clique + #42. Gna miss 'em so much. =( So, yes, I hope i can make an update tml before I leave for my FIRST EVER AIRPLANE TRIP to Cambodia. Anyeong~

bestfriend.

2010-11-08T22:50:00.000+08:00

I miss when we were bestfriends, and where I could trust you. When we could just sit and talk about anything. We had so many things in common. What happened? We should have just stayed friends. I miss you so much. We can't look at each other the same anymore, and it feels like you hate me. I am hanging on to the little hope one day we can be back to what we were, bestfriend.

life.

2010-11-08T22:34:00.000+08:00

I know it hurts. But it's life, and it's real. And, sometimes it fucking hurts, but it's life, and it's pretty much all we got.

-Garden State (2004)

friends.

2010-11-08T20:38:00.000+08:00

I feel shit about myself all the time. The people around me take me for granted so I'm completely off the rails. They lie to me, they ignore me, they bitch about me and then when they need something from me they're all smiles. Used. I've lost touch with people, you could say I don't even know how to be human anymore.

luck.

2010-11-07T21:42:00.000+08:00

The results are coming out tml. Our class list. Whatever happens, I'm prepared. I know that I'll be disappointed, that's for sure. Gonna be separated, of course. *sigh. Alone&lonely I shall be. Whatever it is, I shall study hard and my way through to O's. Seriously. Ahh, enough. Shouldn't pour out too much. Goodluck everyone. Goodluck ame. God bless.

sleep it away. (Y)

2010-11-07T21:32:00.000+08:00

I love sleep. Sleeping is good. Sleeping makes you forget that shit load of pain you're feeling. Sleeping means drifting off to some other world. A world very different from yours. And somehow, after you wake up, you feel a whole lot better.

I tried, I really did.

2010-11-02T22:12:00.001+08:00

SUM UP MY WEEK.

Tuesday : Fuck yeah whtever. Met jiamin+shimin+afiqa in the morn before training. Jiejie today so kind buy breakfast for me ^^ Hehe. Cheese Sausage+Mountain Dew= (Y)(Y) Today's training went.........okay hophophop. Then SPORTS TAPE TO THE RESCUE! I love it, it absolutely saved my..... LEG. Hexhex. You don't know hao happy I was being able to run and dodge! Heehee. Then I ran like MAD and then, MY MUSCLE GOT FREAKING PULLED AGAIN. D= OMG WTF. Ya, sad I know. Cher not allowing me to play for thur's friendly =( I WANT TO PLAY PLZ. LEG YOU FUCKING BETTER GET WELL SOON I DON'T GIVE A DAMN. FUCK YEAH. So yeah, Kidz Amaze after training with Yilin+Jiamin. Like said, AMAZING indeed. ='D Fun max. ^-^ That totally made my day. Minus the hard times I had jumping on one leg around. Plus the friction burns from the super fast slides. Omg the super fast slides were awesuum. Oh the thrill. =D I LOVEEE it. Hehe. Had such an awesome time there. (Y) Homed. Then siap nonsense all that. > Jaypee. Oh god~ mummy insisted that I got a luggage and heck, I got one. T^T Oh look on the bright side, I won't be shorter =D ! Fuck yeahhhh.

Wednesday: I thought I could rest and sleep in tday but hell NOOOO. Had to go out to get CIP stuffies. Hal-muh-neeh came over. Packed goodie bags. Hal-muh-neeh became my umma for the day!! She cooked for me and even did my hair! Hexhex. ^^ Went to the clinic. Didnt get my jab thou. #$%$%^ Got pills instead, yeah. Playful Kiss all the way~ heehee ^-^

Thursday: Woke up early to cont. with my Playful Kiss ^^ Met SJB/ehemehem afterwards for our light lunch. Back to my housie cause i forgot to bring a form. OMG BLUR MAX LA. > School. > Train awhile. > Raffles Girls for friendlys. Incessant scoldings from coach to ME. =( Wasn't able to play for the rest of the games. Fucking pathetic muscle pulled. So disappointed with myself. Im a failure, really. *sigh. Dinner @ BanQuet with netballers. Home. Playful Kiss~

Friday: Woke up early to clean the housie. Playful Kiss all the way~

Mummy+daddy so cute. ^-^

Woke up early tday. Wanted to sleep in but nehmind, decided to go swimming with Ashiqin, YingYu, Yijing and Jiamin @ JE. Fun indeed. I don't regret making the choice. Hexhex. Today did cheer me up, made me a little happier. :) Am so grateful for that. Homed. Out to IMM. Shopping for some Cambodia stuffies. > walkwalkwalk > Dinner at Swensens (Y)(Y) > Home.

I AM SO BURNT I AM RED. Oh god, why always liddis want? I dark enough alr hor. >=( Okay, gonna go cont. with my Playful Kiss nao. Annyeong~

I love sleep. Sleeping is good. Sleeping makes you forget those shitload of pain you're feeling.

you have no idea.

2010-11-02T21:30:00.000+08:00

_|_

state of depression.

2010-11-01T21:13:00.000+08:00

“People think depression is about being sad. They think it’s just when you ‘feel down’. It’s not. It’s like a darkness that creeps over you and fills you. It drains all your emotions. It takes everything from you, and leaves you feeling hollow and numb. It’s not sadness, it’s not anger, it’s hopelessness. Imagine waking up and there being no colour. Walking outside and feeling no wind. Eating a meal and tasting nothing. Holding somone and feeling completely alone at the same time. When you’re depressed, it’s not a bad mood. It’s a numb, empty, hollowness that seems to never leave. It’s feeling alone in a room full of people. You feel like there’s no hope left.”

who's not tired of living this vicious cycle?

2010-11-01T21:09:00.000+08:00

It’s hard to sleep when deep down you’re hurting and nobody has a clue. You know it’s hard to sleep because you’re up thinking about what could’ve happened, what would’ve happened, and why things didn’t happen. You know it’s hard to sleep when your heart aches so bad that you’re willing to love that person through all the trouble and pain whether they’re aware of what you’re going through or not. And most of all, you know it’s hard to sleep because you’re wondering just when you’ll be okay again.

fuck.life.

2010-11-01T20:44:00.000+08:00

"One blow from caving in."

What else. Haish, whatever. I promise I will not neglect my blog no matter what it is. Whatever that comes down on me. Yeah, I spent my Sunday at home, resting and eating ice-cream while watching Harry Potter, which of course made my day! =D Today's a Monday. CIP early in the morning. Sucked max. HOLS ARE FUCKING BUSY+PACKED PLEASE. PLANS AFTER PLANS AFTER PLANS. My head's in a mess. Like #$%$% Netball afterwards. Friendly @ MGS. The game was alright, i think everyone did well. ^^ But hell no, I freaking pulled my muscles. IT HURTS LIKE A FUCKING BITCH #$%^$ Fuck no, hao am I supposed to train tml? Why am i always getting injuries like #$%^%$ Mad disappointed with myself. *sigh. Hop here and there throughout the game. Cry. Limp. I looked pathetic+retarded max. =( I WANT TO TRAIN TML I DONT CARE. So fucking leg, I DONT GIVE A DAMN YOU BETTER BE WELL. Okay training tml. Goodluck bye.

i.need.more.retail.therapy.fuck.my.life.

2010-10-30T20:04:00.001+08:00

Hello. Life's still fucked up as it is, I still don't have a clue and that happy smile is still plastered up. Mmhmm. Oh yeah, UPDATE. *groans.

Friday was the last day of school. Mmhmm. Sad indeed. Really felt like crying, love 2E2 max. =( School was awesome. Praises. Spring cleaning. Cakes. Drinks. 2E2. Camwhore. Awesome little gifts from teachers. Got back our report books. Pree disappointed with myself. Haish. Swimming afterwards with the usuals (L) Back to school for PTM. Dinner @ BanQuet. Homed at around 8 plus? Mmmhmm. I'm gonna miss 2E2 alot, can't describe it.

Friday=SHOPPING DAY. (Y)(Y) Heartx max. Met 'em up in the morn. Trained down. Lethargic much. Far East > ION > Somerset 313 > Cine > Central @ Clarke Quay, STICKYS! > Bugis > Jaypee. Omg the amount of plastic bags in my hands is like !#!$%$ ugh. I. NEED. MORE. RETAIL. THERAPY. Spent alot. So yeah, need to save up+get a job again. Whoever got lobang, tell me~ Amalina slept over. (Y) Singing+covers at night. Need to edit 'em soon. Oh man. T^T Slept at around 2 in the morning.

Woke up late! >.< Went to support junior's play at the carnival. They did their best, well done~ (Y) Lunch @ KFC afterwards then homed. Left the housie, met #42. <3 Your Voodoo stick. Your tiredness. Our slow+draggy walk. Hee, thanks for sending me. ^^ Met the rest at the stadium. Swimming. Cold max. Tired max. Milo. Croissant. Tom Yam Soupie. Homed. Harry Potter on CH 5+Scream Queens 2. (Y) Expecto Patronum. Omg, I'm so tired. So much things to say. So much things to do. Messy mind. OH GOD. I can't stand it, bye. Need to get some rest. HARRY POTTER. (Y)

hello mundane.

2010-10-27T21:40:00.000+08:00

A boring update for you? Fuck yeah. Will stay that way till I'm well.......fully myself. Hmm. Went swimming on Monday with the boyz. Mmhmm. Great day. Was so tired afterwards. Tuesday afternoon was spent at the Stadium training. T^T OMG TIRING MAX. Yet enjoyable. Gossips. After training. Love teammates max. (L) Was contemplating whether to go to school tday or to skip it and enjoy my day with 'em. But yeah, I decided to head to school. And fuck, I didn't know we were supposed to come to school early tday? So I woke up late, and slowly walked to school. Okay nice reached late. But just in time. (Y) We went to the HPB thingythingy. Well, at least it beats staying in class and stoning around. Hell yeah. Fun. Love the pictures taken tday. Filming after school. Gosh am so exhausted. T^T Tml's the last day of school already. Sad. =( I'm so gonna miss 2E2! No wait, I'm so gonna miss EVERYONE =( ! Omg. Holidays are like whuuuut, mad busy for me? Let's hope for HAPPEH constant updates. *sigh. School ends early tml, so i'm most prolly going swimming with the usuals. (L) Mmhmmm. Then, head back to school cause there's PTM, gotta help out. Shopping on Friday. Oh and remind me to get my mummy's altered pantsie tml? I'm fucking forgetful, or is it........ Hmm, whatever. Hope tml's PTM truns out well. Planning on spending the night together with 'em. (L) Or not. We'll see. The premier's tml. Excited. Mehh. Saw some intro's and I'm already in love with it. Oh wow. The post's long. Suprising much. Okays, finished my boring lil update for y'all.

crash&burn.

2010-10-27T21:05:00.000+08:00

Usuals. Life hasn't been pretty good. Fucked up life. It sucks you know. When everything is doing fine then, it all crashes again. And the worst part is, I really don't want to try and put it all back together again, but I have to.

fuckit.

2010-10-26T20:48:00.000+08:00

Life is unfair. You put someone first who puts you second. You study your ass off for a final only to get a B in the class when you deserved an A. You give 110% to someone in a relationship when they only give 40%. You’re there for your best friend at 3 a.m. when they need it the most & the next day they don’t pick up their phone. You give something your all & sometimes get little to nothing back. You care so much about someone who doesn’t care enough about you to say hi once in a while. You give someone your time & they give you “sorry, I’m busy”. It seems like you’re giving everyone everything & they’re just walking away with it.

Exactly. All my hard work didn't pay off, wtfapershit seriously.

unfair.

2010-10-26T20:38:00.000+08:00

I wear make-up, so im plastic? I speak my mind, so i’m a bitch? I cry, so i’m an attention seeker? I speak to boys, so i’m a slut? I like getting my picture taken, so I love myself? Go On .. throw me a label, you’ll do it anyway. I don’t ignore you, I just don’t care for you. I’m not stuck up, I just dont give a fuck. I’m not insecure, I just don’t trust no motherfucker. I’m not perfect and I dont claim to be.

sorry flood.

2010-10-26T20:26:00.001+08:00

I’m just so confused and sad. I don’t know what to do or how to feel anymore. I don’t want to give up, but I don’t see the point in trying over and over again when it all ends up going back to how it was in the first place.

where's happiness?

2010-10-26T20:18:00.000+08:00

Every day, it gets harder and harder to force myself to get out of bed and act like everything is okay. But I feel so empty. Everything is so worthless.

old picture.

2010-10-26T20:09:00.000+08:00

Everyone has a story. Everyone has at least one great loss in their life. No one has it easy. People come here to say things they feel like they can’t tell anyone. Sometimes it’s lame or stupid, but that doesn’t make it any less real to the person who wrote it. They wouldn’t take the time to sit and type it if it didn’t hurt like hell. Don’t downplay people’s thoughts and tell them they shouldn’t hurt. People all over the world starving doesn’t make a broken heart hurt any less. This is supposed to be a place to vent. Not a place to judge. And not a place to tell someone that their pain shouldn’t hurt.

Self-destruction.

2010-10-25T21:50:00.001+08:00

Well hello there. Life's been pretty much fucking me. Tell me about it. Sweeping that aside, last friday's training was. TIRING MAX. Spent my Saturdays and Sundays at home brooding in bed. Haven't been feeling too well either. Muscleache. Heartache. Went swimming today. I still feel so lifeless and restless thou, sad much. Apologies for a mundane update. I'm pretty much that way nao. My biscuits and bubbles and all that ain't making me happy much. Well, maybe just a little. And OH! I miss this maknae so much yknw. Look at my wallpaper~ I MISS MAKNAE SO FUCKING MUCH.

On the brighter note, look what i've got.

A NEW BUBBLEGUM FLAVOURED POKEMON TOOTHPASTE!

*sigh. For the first time you'll hear me say this, FUCK MY LIFE. Everything's screwed.

revolution.

2010-10-24T22:50:00.000+08:00

oh shopping soon. new clothes. new shoes. new hair. new this. new that. ALL NEW STUFF I WANT. i want piercings. or not. helix. monroe. septum. tongue. and navel. all this. OH MY GOD WHY DO I WANT SO MUCH. kay stop nagging. my shopping list goes on and on and on and on. infinite. OH GOD.

breakthrough.

2010-10-24T22:43:00.000+08:00

Been so long since I've edited my photos. I should prolly stop being lazy and make it a habit to.

these grey days.

2010-10-24T12:26:00.000+08:00

Why does it always rain on me?

Don't speak of love.

2010-10-24T12:25:00.000+08:00

"Someday, our paths will cross and as our eyes meet, our hearts will too. And when that day comes, I swear, I will never let you go, ever again. "

misunderstanding.

2010-10-21T17:30:00.000+08:00

Wish people could understand that.

the pussycat dolls taught me.

2010-10-21T17:14:00.000+08:00

"I don't need a man to make it happen, I get off being free. I don't need a man to make me feel good, I get off doing my thing. I don't need a ring around my finger, to make me feel complete, so let me break it down, I can get off when you ain't around. "

burning out brighter.

2010-10-21T16:24:00.001+08:00

SAY YAYYYYYYYYY~ Today was a good day. Interclass. Netball+Floorball. Oh man, i love the games max (L) No wait, I love 2E2 more~ heehee. ^-^ Goldgold floorball. Sadly for netball, we didn't get anything. And, the boyz did well thou they didn't win. GOOD JOB =D ! Don't sadsad hor~ Tday went pretty well. Aches all over nao. Omg i can't walk. TRAINING TML SMMRE. Went to train aftr school yest. then balled with the boyz~ Am so tired I just want to crash on bed nao. At the end........

Heehee. ^-^

I. AM. HAPPY. FOR. NOW.

2010-10-19T21:50:00.000+08:00

A smile for all of you~ because I'm satisfied with myself for EOY results so far. Really happy~ Results i least expected. My hours of work paid off. Happiness. Oh yes~ Me is gonna commence OPERATION BORING UPDATE NAO.

No tie day yesterday~ woopie doodie doo. School was boring. Periods wasted after period. But, luckily there's awesome friends. (L) Never fail to make me happy. Couldnt train aftr school cause we couldnt find the cage?! Hehe, but I got a free meal after school. WAIT I ALWAYS DO. Sorry~ Went to ball afterwards. Omg fun max. (Y)(Y)

Got back our results tday. Suprisingly satisfying. Buttttt, I can only hope for the best for Maths&Science. God bless. Hopefully I pass. (: Training after school~ Kinda tired but fun maxxx. (Y) Hehe. Gonna be so busy like always~ WHY AM I FOREVER BUSY. Okay, enough for now. Getting off.

I hope this little happiness stay. Everything else is fucked up. Please don't take this little happiness away.

hold on for that happy ending.

2010-10-18T08:22:00.000+08:00

You can't give up, even if all you do is cry. Swallow your tears, stand up on your own two feet and show them that you aren't giving up. No matter what.

physically present. mentally absent.

2010-10-18T08:15:00.000+08:00

" You'll never understand why I hurt so much because you're not the one who is crying, you're not the one who is left behind, you're not the one who loved too much and you're not the one who is holding on to someone who is gone. "

_|_

2010-10-17T21:19:00.000+08:00

Oh hi. Hao do ya'll like my ribbon? Chio i knw~

Marking day on Thurs. Went out to meet maknae then met Frank+Isaac. Went over to Frank's housie. Playplayplay > Jaypee for Yami Yoghurt. (Y)(Y) The bestttttt~

OMG FRIDAY IS A TOTAL KILLER. Netball Interclass for Sec Threes. Frustrating much. Ran here there here there. Stayed back aftr school to train. Shooted 1000 plushish balls. Omg my hands and legs hurt like #$%%# when i went back home.

Woke up at around 1 on Sat? Yeap. Went out to Sakura in the evening to get our dinner. Awesuuuum. (Y)

Changi Airport. Popeyes for dinner. Nyamnyam. Shopping. Doodles, stamps. I had fun. :) > Expo. Shopping~ Texas Chicken. > Home.

I'm sorry I'm in a bad mood. Mianhe~ really. hate this. *sigh. FUCKLIFEUPSIDEDOWN.

the best i ever had♥

2010-10-14T19:54:00.002+08:00

I want a guy best friend who gets mistaken as my boyfriend. A guy best friend is everything you need. Another boy who makes your life complete. A boy who I can run to when my girl BFFs aren’t around. He’ll kick my future boyfriend’s arse when he makes me cry. He’ll make me laugh when there’s tears in my eyes. He is immediately my date on special occasions when you’re single. Idk why. But I really need a guy best friend. A real guy best friend.

; tumblr.

It's too bad I lost mine already. The best I ever had. And no matter how hard I try, I'm never going to get him back. Happy crying ame. *sigh. Enough said. Don't want to die halfway. For now, I'll just hope for the best. Hopes. Wishes. 11:11 wishes.

go away heartache. please.

2010-10-14T19:13:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHA. The picture above is so funny. What a nice way to start the post. Look at me. Im like whut.....poking my nose? And, my nose looks so round! Keke. Hehe, the rest of our pwetty pictures below~ the best really. (Y)

Iskandar's face here = (Y)(Y) Omg, it looks more like a commercial. Hoho. Anyways, went swimming yest. with 'em. AWESUUM MAX. Dinner afterwards > Walk slack > Home. BEST (Y)

And oh! Yay to new injuries and sunburns! I woke up early today morning and cleaned the housie! Happyhappy girl =D ! Went to Frank's housie then played > Jaypee for Yami Yoghurt~ Weehee. And fuck. I wasted $$ on masks. =( OMG PLZ DONT SPEND AME. SAVE SAVE SAVE. Hmm. There's school tml~ And oh! Inter-class coming alr! OMO. I'm blank right nao..... so what am i supposed to say. Shiat i forgotten k bye. Better update perhaps. Enjoy the awesuum pics. ♥

the quiet screaming.

2010-10-12T15:31:00.000+08:00

Hello little animals. Hao ya'll been doing? Exams are drawing to an end, TML'S THE LAST PAPER FUCK YEAH. It's sad we still have Literature to do while some can already enjoy =( But s'okay, SHALL ENDURE. JUST ONE DAY AME. Then, you'll enjoy maximum. Yeah, and then my results gonna come out like wtfapershitnonsense and I'll start weeping away again. Oh failure.

Today is Tuesday. Yesterday was Monday. So yay to no-choke-yourself-day! Maths paper was seriously !@$# ah fuck it. I didnt have a ruler and I drew my graph with a fucking set square?! Ah, whtever. Stayed in schl awhile > Jaypee for make-up hunting for Hazrul then lunchie ! Banquet > Hunthuntshopshop > PM's MacD > Carpark. Mmmhmm. Yeah, that sums up yesterday. Oh Oh! Btw, yknw jeslyn made a kitty for my phnw LED! OMG ITS SO CUTE KAMSAHAMIDA. (:

Maths Paper 1 today was so !@#@ Okay mathsie never fails to make me go !@#$ Went to KFC to get our breakfast with maknae+unnie. Awesuum. Oh yknw~ I feel like I shouldn't have eaten the American Twister~ Mmmhmm. Bored of the taste I guess? NAK MAKAN PORRIDGE. Yessssa, perhaps tml? GOSH PLANS FOR TML. CANT WAIT. We wasted our time at jaypee then homed. I love days like this. Days where we laugh dance sing crap. Awesuum. Maknae+unnie liftened my moods, love them to bits maximum. Okay, shall study for Lit later on. For nao, ITS BULK DOWNLOADING OF SONGS. Kkya~

I used to think I had it all. Then one day we hit a wall. I had hoped you were the one. Where's my dream, where has it gone? Everyday it's getting worse. Do the same thing and it hurts. I don't know if I should cry. All I know is that I'm trying. What's the point of makin' plans. You break all the ones we had. I don't know where we went wrong. Where do I go from here. You've got it under my skin. And I don't know how to get out of this place I'm in.

emergency.

2010-10-10T20:37:00.001+08:00

I stayed in bed the whole day yesterday, literally. Played lappy everything blabla in bed. Sick. Injuries. Sunburn. Muscleache. Heartache. _|_ whtever seriously. Stayed in bed mostly today, got up to study Mathsie for about 3 hours...? I feel so sick..... I can't concentrate well. Let's just hope Maths Paper won't be a killer tml, and I'll pass. Hmm. Im in no mood to do anything nao. Fuck it. Someone plz just come take me away. Grab your guns. Shoot me down.

@amekittykatzx.

paboo ame pabooo.（ToT）

my everything. ♡

i'm a mistake.

∞

i'll be back.

my dear strong 2PM, ♥

Rilakkuma baby, :b

busy bee.

PUT YOUR HANDS UP! *^^*

depression?

have you?

Have you ever felt despair? Absolute hopelessness? Have you ever stood in the darkness and known, deep in your heart, in your spirit, that it was never, ever going to get better? That something had been lost, forever, and that it wasn’t coming back?

Pokemonnnnnnnnnn! :B

my missed post. highlightssssssss.

Why? Why me?

Justin Bieber. ♥

i'm at the losing end, not you.

;tumblr.

comeback.

the sunshine after the rain.

it's been long.

drained.

no more picturessss. T^T

AMIRAH♥

formspring dey.

school kills my soul.

no one but you. fix.me.

losing myself in emptiness.

don't.fucking.know.me.at.all.

between the lines.

bed head.

i luff you. =3

I'll be with you like a shadow.

i miss bby. =(

time will pass you by.

purely description.

wordy much.

death scream.

"ame, you have us." =')

back to destruction.

embarassing quirky headband.

^.^

meow <:

i nak teddy bear <:

Happeh Birthday Hairi! ^.^

imma be.

mixed emotions.

indestructible for now.

exhausted.

why does it always rain on me?

my sorry eyes can see.

HARRY POTTER! (L)

i'll be back.

my happiness? gone.

stop procrastination.

a.non.detailed.update.sorreh.

go strong front go.

strong front.

bestfriend.

life.

friends.

luck.

sleep it away. (Y)

I tried, I really did.

you have no idea.

state of depression.

who's not tired of living this vicious cycle?

fuck.life.

i.need.more.retail.therapy.fuck.my.life.

hello mundane.

crash&burn.

fuckit.

unfair.

sorry flood.

where's happiness?

old picture.

Self-destruction.

revolution.

breakthrough.

PUT YOUR HANDS UP! ^^